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well, I honestly dont know if i'm a good singer or not so i'd like honest opinions and ways to improve.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XkMcTW3KH40&feature...

I've been depressed for a long time now and I keep having panic attacks, I cant explain whats going on in my head its like the thoughts i'm thinking aren't my own, I can't control them its driving me crazy. I just hate everything I cannot see myself getting better, like I just cant see it. I have extremely low self esteem and lately its gotten really bad, when i'm out with my friends i have to leave because i cant stand people looking at me, I cry around 5 times a day because i just feel hurt, like the thoughts in my head stop be from doing daily things, all i can think about is that i should die because i don't deserve anything, theres this feeling i get like i cant explain its like a feeling i should throw myself through a glass window or i'll just be walking down the street normally and all of a sudden i feel as if i should just walk into the middle of the road. then i'll start having a panic attack for hours and suddenly it will just stop, i feel different i don't feel okay, i just feel nothing and then i forget about before i just feel numb, and then the cycle continues again.......

sometimes i go out a lot say like every day for a week i'll go out and smoke and take alcohol then all of sudden i'll just stood and not want to talk to anyone or leave the house.

I don't even know what to do, i just don't want to feel like this anymore because its stopping me from doing simple everyday takes. what do i do? i was going to go to my GP but then they have to ask questions and send letters of and refer you to places and i don't know i just need help soon like now because i cant do anything.

I've got tonsillitis and i've noticed a lump on the side of my neck kind of near the back it is slightly painful is this because of the tonsillitis or what?

I had unprotected sex the day after my period ended, can i still get pregnant?

Right, today I had unprotected sex....but I swear it was like for 5 seconds cause I was like no, I should not be doing this....is there a chance I am pregnant? shitttttt. what do I do?

I hope I'm depressed or something I don't even know.

Like i feel like i'm loosing myself, things I used to care about i don't even care about anymore.

I don't care about school like i actually don't care when I fail, when i fail and my teacher tells me its like i'm not bothered by it and when people shout at me its like i just don't care.

and everything i used to love doing i just don't enjoy anything anymore.

and when people tell me they love me, it doesn't make me happy i don't care its just like i feel nothing towards anything.

i feel lost, i don't have any dreams or goals anymore, i just wake up eat and sleep.......

like people can be nice to me and i'll just be mean to them and not even feel guilty at all.

but its not like i don't feel things because

i don't feel happy i feel nothing, but i can feel some sort of empty feeling like at night i can cry because i feel hopeless and empty, but its not sadness.

.... i just don't know what to do...

also my dog that died who i had for like 10 years..like i wasn't even sad about it and this worries me.

it worries me that i'll do something bad because i just don't care.

I seriously think I have two vagina's or a really large hymen l...it looks like my hymen ( i think its that anyway) has like lips....seriously what can hymens even be so large and have lips.

So this is the only picture I have haha but I was wondering what body type I have you know like the ones 'pear,hourglass' and which clothes are best for my body :)

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(no mean comments please.) i know its not the best pic

http://i42.tinypic.com/zu5e9t.jpg

I'm depressed

I just don't wanna do anything at all anymore I just wanna sit on my own and listen to heavy metal which is unusual for me as my preferred genre is country music...

I cry everyday cause i'm not perfect and no one loves me.

like seriously i'm depressed and its not going away.

I dont wanna tell anyone they will think i'm weird but today I thought if the next 6 months are gonna be the same as this I don't know if I can cope or take it.

I don't know whether to use this as my profile picture because my face looks a little wonky and you can accidentally see my bra do you think its suitable still?

After college I want to do this http://www.solent.ac.uk/courses/undergraduate/musi... or similar

so I was wondering at college what is the best to do?

http://www.flickr.com/photos/73025693@N03/65895103...

green or brown?