Stormy December

I used to watch a video on youtube that I'm guessing was an AMV for Le Portrait de Petit Cossette. The song was dubstep or something like that and it was really wild and creepy. I believe the title was either foreign or typed weird.

Really, any info is good for me. Thanks

But I'm 16, the legal age.

I need the cheapest way to get my high school credits for the next two years so I can drop out.

I won't explain why I'm going to drop out. But I am. I don't want to go to school anymore but the law here strictly prohibits not attending school.

Is there any online course?

I've always teetered on weather I was sadistic or not because some people say it's erotic pleasure from inflicting pain. Sometimes I get the erotic pleasure but other times not. And when I do that it's to people to really know me.

Let's call these situations sadistic states, I guess. When I go into them all I feel is the pleasure and absolutely no remorse. Is this sadistic or something else?

During...uh, sexual activities I like being dominant and in control. Some of my turn ons have to do with inflicting pain on my partner(s). I wasn't sure if that had anything to do with it or not . I just want to get as much info as possible.

So would you consider me sadistic?

What is your definition of sadism?

I have to go to summer school and today was my first day. It was 5 hours of panic attack after panic attack. When I get nervous like that I get gas and have to go number 2. I get so embarressed and I really want to finish this class but my anxiety is so overwhelming. Next year I'll be going to a different school and I'm still nervous about that. I don't know what to do and I'm so scared. I also get hungry but I don't want to eat stuff thatll give me gas and I don't like apples or anything crunchy thatll make it obvious I'm eating. I tried to breathe but its hard sometimes.

Please...help me.

My stomach always rumbles from gas when I'm in class. At first it was just the gas. Now I hsve more anxiety from it. Last time we took our exams, I had so much sounds it was horrible. After that I was terrified of silence. Today we have our History exam and I'm terrified, so terrified. Im going to be in the classroom with kids who can possibly end my life if it happens. Knowing my luck I'll be in the front where everyone can see me.

I had two buns with butter this morning. I was thinkig about not going to school and going tomorrow so I can take the test with like 10 other kids instead of 30. Please...help me...

I got a bag at this army store and all it has it a red star on it and it was called 'red star bag'. I asked the manager what it meant and he said it was just for show but I don't want to believe it is. What does it mean?

So, really this is kind of two questions in one.

First question, is it infected? I got it pierced on Thursday and I wasn't supposed to eat solid food (I think) for 5 days. But I was so damn hungry. Yesterday there was some yellowish puss, not much, maybe it was just food, I don't know, too small to tell. My tongue's also yellow/white-ish but I think that's because I haven't brushed my tongue yet. I wash my mouth out with half water half mouthwash after I eat/drink something nonwater. My tongue isstill swollen, it's only been a few days though. Is it infected?

And how do I take care of it if it is infected?

I like to sleep cold so my room is usually cold but I know my rat is cold. I've put an old blanket over her cage, put a smaller blanket inside, and filled a bottle with warm water, wrapped it in a towel and put it in her bottom part of the cage. But I'm afraid she'll be cold still. She also has a fluffy bed, but I don't know if it'd help. I want to keep her warm, how do I do it? It would help to tell me what I can do now, at 1 am, and tomorrow, when I can buy things.

Thank you, so, so much.

I don't understand how to do, say, x/6-(-10)=3. What do I do with the x/6? How do I check my answer?

Thank you.

To find the surface area of a square pyramid, the formula is 1/2Pl. But how do I do that 1/2? I don't understand that part fully.

I'm having a panic attack and she's so wrapped up in her stupid family that she doesn't notice. I don't want to be here anymore, how so I get her to take me home?

I'm making a scrapbook for my mom for Christmas but I don't have the money how do I make the cover of it?

For the past month I've been hallucinating. Well, maybe not hallucinating fully but I've been seeing things out of the corner of my eyes and I hear things. Just little things like a lot of scratching and stuff like that. Last night I sat on my bed and it felt like someone was moving around next to me. Another time I was at my friends and I thought I saw a man stand up from her computer chair. I knew it wasn't real but I was so scared.

I've been on edge lately too. Blowing up at everyone. I'm sure most people know what I mean. Anyway, I've just been so confused and stuff. I can't even explain it.

I just want to know if I'm crazy and if there's a name for it...

Sometimes I can think about something clearly and then my mind would just go blank, out of no where. When I dream, sometimes I can swear it's real. I get them mixed in with reality and I can't seem to pull them apart. Sleeping is hard too because my mind seems to be constantly working, mixing all of my memories and thoughts together. I can't seem to remember faces. They'll get...transformed and when I see that person (or people) they seem like strangers. I forget a lot of things but that's pretty common. Though it may be my fault because I can easily dream no matter where I am. Sometimes I think I hear or see things but they aren't technically clear. When I'm bored, I sometimes stare at things and just block everything out. Every once in a while, I'll find myself doing something but it isn't that big. There are more things but I can't think of them right now. Is something wrong with me?

For the past 3 nights I've been having these nightmares. They're horrible...I won't even go into detail. Now I'm afraid of sleeping. I don't want them to come back. But I also don't know what to do. At the moment we're having a thunder/lighting storm and I'm afraid I'll crack if the lights go off. For some reason I'm so afraid of the people/stuff in my dreams coming true. How do I get rid of these dreams?

Me and my boyfriend don't talk much at all. We live in different worlds. But me and this other guy, let's call him Red (: We talk every day. He probably knows more about me than my boyfriend does and I know I like him. But I don't think he likes me. Is is bad to like him? I'm not a cheater, I'd break up with my boyfriend before anything would happen.

I've read that I have to bit the end with my teeth but when I do that I can't get the ball. How can I get it out? And I don't want to use pliers.