Violet Draga

I will be honest about myself: My mother showed many signs of bipolar she abused me as a child mentally and physically, my step father abused me physically and let me mother abuse me. My mother was paranoid that people were out to get her, and my father recently had these delusions and was acting out of his mind involving police.

I recently feel as if im grieving for my mother years later at 17 yrs old realising that her sense of "loving"me was wrong, and not real because you cant abuse some one and love them at the same time. I am grieving for my father who went completely insanse when i started anti depressants on a low dose from my doctor and he didnt support me andinstead tried to abuse me mentally. Ievery while and than have paranoid thoughts which i push away and only last about 10 to 30 minutes. In the past i did have majour delusions that people were out to get me althought i was brainwashed as a child by my mother, she told me most people in the family were bad and i dont know if what she said was true. I find my self unable to trust any one and i suffer from anxiety, depression and insomnia. I find myself feeling confused, tense and have what i believe to be major MEMORY issues which i find trouble me through out the wole day. I dont feel as if my anti depressants are working at all could this be because i have insomnia frequently ? Or if my mother and father both has delusions and show many signs of bipolar. I could have bi polar?

I have self harmed in the past.

My horse looks unsound, she twists her pelvis at the walk and trot it is subtle, but obviouse to some one that is experienced, and she has this cracking problem in her pelvis it has a name. Im sure my horses pelvis is dimented and it causes her to compensate and have back pain, she is sore to ride.

My Myotherapist thinks my horse is most likely arthritic, she rests one of her legs allot more than the other and it is putting allot of strain onto her hocks, and her muscles are so tight. Her future isnt looking bright for a ten year old horse.

I am really curious i want to not get my hopes high about my horse, i bought her in bad condition because i was nieve. I am going to ring and organise a good lady vet who is a chiropracture and i want to ready myself for what she says because if my horse is in pain, i need to get this sorted out before i have year 12 when i will have all this extra stress.

So do horses with fractured pelvis's usually get put down ?

Do horses that are in pain from a fracture get put down ?

Do horses with pain from arthritis in their pelvis or hips get put down ?

My horse also has knocked down hips or unlevel hips, my horses sacroiliac is also twisted do horses get put down for that ?

My horse looks content to eat, but she doesnt run around that much, she also puts her ears back when asked to go forwards allot i just thought it was a mare thing but my horse puts her ears back allot.

I will tell the vet all the things i notice, my horse finds it hard to also canter exspecially on one side, i will definately get this lady chiro out allot if my horses pelvis can be put back into place, i will also get an ultrasound if i have to, i want my horse to live for many years.

I cant afford arthritic injections for my horse it is like 120$ per week, that is allot for the bad economy. I just hope that this horse i bought has not been in bad pain this whole time, im going to feel very guilty if she has, but than ill feel guilty if she gets put down to.

I am starting to make Horse rope halters and want them to be upmost professional, so that the end of the rope does not fray, but also looks good.

. I dont want to melt with a lighter.. it gets charcoal on it and burns

Can i use liquid tape and apply it on the rope after i have sealed it with heat, will that keep the rope protected from fraying ? And ruining ?

i cant use metal clips as that could poke a horses eye out, and i dont want to be sewed over that.. ect and i cant find plastic ends but even they would be hard and could fling up and hit a horse so i need the end of the rope soft and smooth, but professional.

First of all i know the horse has a tilted pelvis because my qaulified muscle manipulator person told me so, and said i would just need to work/ride her to find out if she will be able to handle being ridden.

So far ive ridden her 3 times for 10 MINUTES not canter only walk and a little trot and she trotted because she wanted to sometimes (sensetive to leg and i was bareback) She is sore on her back HEAPS i havent ridden her at all since i noticed the soreness, both her shoulders are sore and she doesn't track up with the far hind leg. I only lunge her for 10-20 minutes as she is not fit and lacks muscle.

My muscle lady person said she got the tilted pelvis from having a foal ONLY ONE FOAL and her bone structure is naturally the tilted pelvis. I cant afford having a horse only for light riding or no riding nor can i afford for her to have heaps of medications its just not practical for me.

I accidentaly bought a horse with a tilted pelvis after u had the horses feet trimmed i realised that the tilted pelvis was from bone structure.

I am going to get a vet out for a general vet check next weekend to see if there are any other problems and also to examine her pelvis, and let me know if she could do light riding or be a brood mare ( her conformation is good shes got no majour faults).

I have suspicions that the owner knew her problems and lied to me how would i go about selling a horse that is unsound to ride ? I know that these horses can go lame all of a sudden and if i find out she can not be ridden at all is it best to put her down if i cant sell as a paddock pet.

Its such a shame shes such a nice horse, but i didn't ride her every day and after i rode her id let her have 2-3 days of and also after she had a massage i let her have 4 days of whcih is what my massage lady reccomended.

hope u can understand this. This is my first horse and she was going sooo well ! Never did she buck,rear,kick, show signs of pain being ridden or sweat heaps she was so happy but it seems her unsoundess is coming out.

She also always stands curved to the right and her pelvis looks HEAPS tilted so i dont think its worth training her up to be a good riding horse and for her suddenly to go lame and sore all the time.

She also has heaps of stiff muscles coming from shoulder to the gluteals and tha hamstrings and neck muscles.

ok so when im with my horse alone, i am confidant and happy and my horse thinks ok yea Olive is feeling great today shes a great leader look how confidant she is:

Heres a Video to show you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0PYjhB-xFAA

Ok i know my mistakes but i try and lunge the Klaus Hempfling way, so im not chasing her this is the way K.H lunges. She is not that desensetied to the lunge whip cracking i notice ! she did buck in the air but right away from me so will work more on that.

I know shes pissed of being desensitised, but i needed to see how she would react ive only had her for little under 2 weeks so the faster i find out how calm she is and how she responds than the easier it is for me.

So im purposely acting more on the lazy side near this horse, im not sure how she can react in different types of situations so i prefer to act calm, slow and steady. When i pause im trying to focus on relaxing myself and readying myself for the next task and also gives me time to acess how shes going as she has been abused by aggresion.

When im alone with my horse i dont feel unsure about myself, so my body language is tall confidant and steady but when ppl are around particulary horse people i think omg what will they think ! But i am trying my best and i will really practice with my body language more.

i know to not use double reins just didn't have any other rope on me so i had to loop them through twice.

recently i got allot of contraversy to what i did, i know my mistakes though the body language in lunging was not dominant or leadership like.

dont piss on me about the ******* tarp though. I know how calm she is with the tarp.

i have no problems with my horses attitude other than what i feel when around ppl and horses.

Ive bought a Magnesium oxide (pure and natural form) for my horse to feed because of the deficinecy of it in Australian grasses. I am really bad at maths and im scared to feed it to my horse lololol

I might be needing to measure grams and milligrams for horse supplements, but what can you measure milligrams with ? What type of measurer thing.

Thank you .

Ok so i put in my Sandisk memory card that contains Go pro videos and than i imported them into Iphoto and when i press play they glitch soooooo many times you can hardly watch the movie. And so right now im importing the go pro movies from iphoto into I movie and i hope that when i pload them onto youtube they wont glitch. Please help. I also have the correct memory card for the Go pro camera, i have the best quality and type and the settings were on automatic on the Go pro camera.

i need at least 2 Supply factors that impact Melbourne's price of properties.

Im doing an oral debate for school and i think Australia has a culture, but im brain storming and ive interviewed a few people so i should start soon writing what im going to say.

well ive been riding this horse which is for an advanced rider but i can manage a nice calm trot some times collected well most of the time he holds his head a bit down flexed but i cant tell if his collected i just keep a slight pressure on my calves and so my legs remain back and not like a rocking chair and to keep him forward but can put to much pressure, his sensitive i have to relax every inch of my body to keep him relaxed and then he goes collected himself and i just keep light contact or half halt and sit deep and not to tense my hips or lower back so it is very hard compared to riding a schooled horse but i feel as the more the horses owner asks me to do its hard to keep focusing on every thing im doing and the horse but soon i will be riding another one of her horses more suited to me a lease but the first time he was so relaxed i felt he was collected as i was just so relaxed and we were both mooving together with impulsion and balance also yes i have to keep my balance nearly perfect to make sure hes going straight and in a nice circle so what do you think i dont know why i asked this youve never seen me ride but the onwner thought i did alright she asked me to do extended trot but i dont even know his a lovely horse to learn new things though :)

Hi,

Im looking for a share/lease horse which i PAY NOTHING except with my labor and riding i started riding when i was 9 and this yr im 16 so i have been doing lessons over those years but to be exact 4 years of weekly lessons im doing a Equine Industry course this year and i really am missing horse riding i need to get there my self with public transport if any one knows any it would be helpfull i havecontacted peole leasing horses and even one for no cost im just waiting. Cheers i also have helped look afterr an ex pacer and TB when i was 12 and have ridden the naughty/mare schooled ponies before so any things fine alsong good health and decent age fitness nothing under 14 hands im 160 cm 40-50 kg

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i do know some but i want my equine industry book to be perfect and leave no good detail out

im doin my equine homework the work isnt hard and yeah im rlly not wanting to go to sleep ... :( because of other things

what is the golden rule when handling horses - when two people are handling a horse at the same time..........

left to left shoulder is it ???? please

Is the near foreleg ? The front left leg

Is the off hind leg ? The back right leg?

Just so my equine industry studies book is perfect !!!!!

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I get angry at them on the Internet allot of those Christian and religious and extreme types or sum times the rally up them selves ones any one have a similar experience feelings ? I'm Aussie I'm laid back but do good at school and my education equine course is most important to me it's just confusing is it there religion tradition or economy that makes Americans act a little you know ... XTREME !!!!!! I know I am extreme but whybr so many americanos extreme????

Jesus he appeared in a white robe blue belt and leather shoes his hair was cut short and he was shaved also some polo Aftershave I could smell he said to me Olivia I'm sick of people calling me gods son I mean I was a doctor I did cure some peoples diseases and I also did some good charity work but Im not the son of god he was a ghost !!!!!! Omfg and he's all like yh so if you want to talk some time just say ma name and I'll be around from 7-10 am cos I'm busy the rest of the day I was like all **** better go see my phycologist but then Jesus said your not crazy and yes I'm fine with all atheists and every one else's religion keep on the good vibes peace out home dog then He was GONE !!! Omg now I know Jesus was just a great guy and all yes he did talk some more like he said that the bible has haunted him for the rest of his life because even when he died he saw how every one thought the book was a religion and he didn't like being falsely labeled as the son of god he also told me god WAS A GIRL AND BOY and that god was actually mother earth and the whole universes good vibes he said dont worry just keep your good karma up and you'll do fine and then just await being reborn he said there's no heaven at all just chill.... Like I said before he said good bye like this peace out home dog :) how funny this wasn't a dream he woke me up I nearly shat ma panties