BlossomLilac

Hello. I have a somewhat happy yet unhappy life with my family, friends etc. Happy because I have a close relationship with my mom and brothers. Unhappy because..these:

Technically, my parents' marriage are kinda over since almost a year ago but still, we continue to live together as a so-called family. My parents' were married not because they love each other, but I'll guess I'll skip that part. It's another long different story. (Nothing to do with out of wedlock stuff too)

When I told my mother that living separately is probably the best option (divorce is a big thing, and I don't want any of my opinions influence my mom etc), my third elder brother scolded me and accused me for being so selfish and rude. I was so upset.

Anyways, I've graduated last year and still couldn't find a job. My second elder brother has been jobless for almost 6 years. He did worked for a few private companies or NGO, as a substitute teacher etc but all of it were short contracts and until now, he couldn't get a permanent job. He's a fine man and it's not because he has any police record, no qualification or not dedicated in doing his work but *sigh* I don't know.. maybe he'll have something greater sooner or later. My third elder brother was recruited and being trained as a police earlier this year but had to leave since he suddenly had a heart problem. His marriage was postponed too, due to that sudden matter.

It breaks my heart to see that my second brother has been an introvert for the past few months. He stopped playing tennis every evening. I've always been a cheerful and positive woman but lately, I felt so alone in this matter, helpless and been crying to myself a lot. And it seems that my best friends became so distant and they've always had a plan without involving me. Not that I wanted to be a VIP but I guess you know how it feels to be left out, often.

I love them so much that if only I could do anything to spare them from this heartaches and sadness.. And I'm torn apart between my anger and love for my father as well. Yes, he's been a somewhat irresponsible father and husband but still, I couldn't and don't want to hate him..

I know I need to do something but I've been drained out physically, mentally and emotionally.. Help me.. :(((

P/S: Sorry for this super long post.. but I don't want to keep it to myself. I'm worried that I'm getting too depressed and started doing something stupid without realizing it.

I am planning to further my degree studies in Pharmacy or Education and Languages in UK. my options are: Bradford University, Lancaster University, Kent University or St. Mary's University College. I'm looking for affordable places with moderate lifestyle etc. The thing is, my mum wants (but she's not pushing me tho) me to study in Canada, while my brothers are concern about the stress level if I live in UK.. I don't really know much about both places but especially Canada.

Which one is better then? How about the education system? I would really appreciate it if u guys would give ur opinions. =)

Just for additional info: I'm an Asian, never went to European countries. I'm not a party animal or someone who likes living in a big metropolitan city. I like nature, simple yet active lifestyle. I'm looking for affordable places too as I'm going to study by sponsorship, so money will be a bit tight, I guess.

THANK YOU! =)

i have a slightly tan coloured skin.

i) do u think RED will be ok 4 me?

ii) which colour do u think will be great when matched with red?

- bright yellow

- pink (kinda pale)

thx 4 ur opinion. ^^

i'm going to have a new pet later and im confuse which one to choose: a dog or a cat. personally, i prefer a cat because we already have 3 dogs at the moment (plus, we'r living in a residential area).

but there's few things that i'm considering:

- those who have a cat(s), do u bath them? and if u do, how did u do it? i mean, from all the scratchings etc.

- is there any other way to prevent the cats from getting lice? i love putting my cat on my bed when he sleeps.

i know that cat will clean up themselves, but would that be enough??

any extra info and advices are welcomed.thanx..!!

*i've posted this question b4 but i couldn't view it. some error. SORRY for coming up with same quest.

I decided to give a surprise for my best friend for her 19th bday this year --a new hairstyle 4 her. im s0 worried that i'll pick a wrong style 4 her n of course i dont wanna disappoint my best fren..!!

pls let me know what hairstyle would do best on her looks and if possible, could u pls provide the link if u have d pix?

n wadya think of her? i really need ur help n thanks a lot 4 it!! ^^

here's a photo of her:

http://s735.photobucket.com/albums/ww353/elysium58...

when i press the '~' button beside num 1 button, it will appear as '¬'. even my '@' changed to " also. mine is laptop. i tried to fix it at control panel setting, but i couldn't figure it out. help me.. it's slowing me when typing my assignment

i only know that side effect is an unwanted effect after taking some medication,while adverse is harmful. but is there any difference other than that? pls correct me if i'm wrong about the diff. TQ

can anybody pls tell me what is the term used for 'time dependent drug'? for example (drug) : corticosteroids. but i mean,general term. for all time dependent drug. TQ

ok,so i can sing this song but i dont know what the meaning..only a little bit..pls help me..huhu

sui ran shi jian dan de xing rong

sui ran shi zhong fu de dong zuo

yin wei you ni

rang yi qie dou bian cheng bu ping fan

* hao xiang feng he ni wo shou xin

jiu zhe yang qian zhu fang bu kai

you ni pei ban

hu xi zhe you ni de kong qi

jiu shi xing fu

Ti Amo

Te Quiero

mei yi tian dou yao ai shang ni

xiang zhe ni chen ru meng jing

yi zheng yan yi qing xing

di yi ge xiang dao you shi ni

Sarang hae

And I Love You

wo mei tian dou yao ai shang ni

shao yi tian jiu hui yi han

pei zhe ni de guang yin

zen yang dou bu suan cuo tuo /

(Repeat *)

pei zhe ni de guang yin

yong yuan dou jue de bu gou

recently,when i'm using the internet,this often pop out.. : "an error had occured. do u wish to debug?"

what does this mean n how can i fix it? pls help me.TQ

.everytime a guy shows he's interested with me,starting to text me n b so nice to me (n i'm not into him)..it really turns me off..i dont want to be mean or hurt anyone,but sometimes i couldnt talk to him casually..( i am a straight girl..)

is this normal? i mean..most of my frens will get excited when guys chasing aft them..but i dont..

n wat shud i do to not let them feel that i really dont like them..?

ok,i'm planning of joining yoga class..but one of my fren told me dat,once u stop practicing yoga,u'll easily gain weight? is it true?? cz i know i cant join it when i go for my semester 3 in cllge..my schedule wont b the same like now..pls help me!!

my dog luvs 2 seat with us,on the CHAIR during our meal time..!! she even slipped behind me when there's no chair available.duh~! we've always scold her n teach her not to do it,n it works..for few minutes. so,any of u have the same prob like this?how to handle her?

i'm studying dip.in pharmacy now and wud like to pursue my degree aft cmpleting my dip. but our lecturer told us dat we'll be taking 4 years for the degree of pharm 'tho we hve dip. i thought we'll only need 2 years. so,does the same thing happen in ur country 2?? i'm confused now.

I've known this guy for almost 5 yrs but nvr talk personally or even in group with him ! we're from diff school but during weekend i often saw him. I really like this guy.

the prob is,he did tried waving & smiling at me but then quickly turn away. I dont know what does he feels for me. I really wanted to say even 'Hi' to him,but..i'm afraid that he nvr likes me...

what would u do if i were u..? I'm not sure abt his feelings or watever...it drives me crazy!