Do you think I'm evil to do this?
I'm married, have 1 adult son. I'm 48. Hubby 63. Will never leave my husband even though we are living in a celibate relationship, he doesn't want sex anymore and discussion after discussion no resolution. Obviously I still want a sex life. I was badly abused at one point in my life so its complex how I feel about sex. During a tumultuous time in my life when I lost both parents and sister a man entered my life and iv fallen head over heels. Hes married. Adult kids. We have been having an emotional affair for 8 years, some kissing and hugging. Never sex. We both want to as intense chemistry but I will never go there. How I feel about him is intense affection......I like him and his family......and I dont want them hurt, hence I keep distance. To he honest what I'd really like is to be a family friend not an affair partner but he always pushed it this way. Lately he has included family and that's really lovely. I want him to be happy and I love my own partner. I'm not a bad person guys. Do you think I'm really evil?
Iv invited on numerous occasions him and wife to my house for dinner but he will come alone or bring his adult kids. Why won't he just make this a normal friendship. It can be no more