please help?

i know how you feel, to some extent. i've been institutionalized 7 or 8 times for suicidal thought and stuff, people get angry at me to if i tell them how i feel, about 3 months ago i wanted to kill myself, my mom was really pissed..doesn't seem fair huh? i've come to realize these feelings are selfish, becasue everyone feels them, it's just some of us feel them stronger, some of us want to talk about it..talking about it helps, you can talk to me anytime, my email is slipknot_fiend666@yahoo.com, if your ever feeling down, i'm here and you can vent. You could keep a journal too, i've been journaling for about 6 years, i turn my feelings into songs. you've had a real hard life, you've gone through things nobody should ever have to go through, just remember, you aren't a bad person, and it's not your fault.

Maybe you want to die because you really really miss your parents. It can be very hard to lose people you are so close too and it can be super hard to be a caregiver as you have been. I have seen so many times people care for someone like you did your parents and they are nearly used up when all is said and done. It is hard to take care of yourself when you have so much grief going on.

There are things that you can do. Depression can be caused by a variety of things and there a some really good natural things you can do to help. Depending upon your age, you could also be dealing with menopausal issues or any number of things.

Be kind to yourself and be proud of yourself that you were able to make your parents last days as comfortable as possible. Many kids pack their parents off to nursing homes, and leave their care to strangers - but not you. Wherever your parents are now, they are thrilled and delighted to have such a wonderful child as you, I am sure.

To address your specific issues, I would urge you to get in touch with Natural health practitioners - I use the Drs. DeAmicis (you can find them at http://www.spaceandtime.com/ ) and they helped me with my Post Partum depression and hundreds others with all manner of issues. I also love Louise Hay and her book You Can Heal Your Life.

You may want to consider the possibility that there is something to what you have been going through. Is it possible that now that your folks have gone, you know have the opportunity to radically change your life to something much better suited to you?

I've been there.

Really, everybody does not hate you. I know it feels like it, but it is not true. I think you want to die because you are scared, and because you tell yourself things that make you feel worse - like that everyone hates you. read A Guide to Rational Living by Albert Ellis and find SOMEBODY to talk to - i know that will be hard because you are still depressed, but you really need to talk. A therapist, a 12 step program, a therapy group - there should be some options where you live.

listen dear, problems are a part of our lives. rather, they only make it. every person in this world is facing problems. it's a different thing that someone is facing severe and someone, minute.

u can suppose this world to be a demon running after u who neither allow u to live, nor to die.

please dont think urself helpless and try to b happy in what u r having/facing. u r ur only strength.

dont care abt anyone or what they think abt u coz everyone here would like to put u down but u prove urself the best and plz try to neglect everyone. u just concentrate on ur married life now.

CARE ABT. THOSE WHO CARE FOR U.

Please Read "Quran" The Last Book Of God, it will help you a lot,it is only because you are far from GOD and religion,.

i assure you you will be normal and spend good life.