I dont want to live anymore

My mom is an alcoholic as well and i must look after her and my grandma (who is sick) i am 14 years of age. My father left me when i was 4 and i haven't contacted/ seen him since and he avoids paying for child support. We barely can afford food or housing i also have two sisters one of which is married and no longer communicated with us and the other which is 18 and is basically living on the streets as she is hardly ever home. At school i get beat up for being different and skinny.

I have to take medication for my chronic depression but since we can not afford the pills i must do without. This computer was a gift to me from my older sisters husband because he saw we were having difficulties.

My life isn't exactly a bed of roses but as you can see i am still alive, sometimes i wish i wasn't but you have to think of others as well my family may hate me but i still worry for them and need to take care of my grandma and mother.

If you continue on this path you will drown in self-pity.

Tough it up and go on with life.

-Ryo

Wow. Do you have anyone in the family you can talk to? Like bros or sis? OR a cous younger or older? probably older would be better. Or maybe an aunt or uncle or grandparent. You should talk to someone about the way u feel and what is going on. DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT KILLING YOURSELF. U ARE A YOUNG GIRL AND HAVE A FUTURE IN FRONT OF U AND DONT THROW THAT AWAY BECAUSE U ARE SAD, WE ALL GET SAD. im an older male and although im not a dr or therapist or anything, i am a good listener so if u need someone to talk to or just for advice then i will be glad to try to help. so feel free to EMAIL me if u want . GOOD LUCK AND REMEMBER EVERYONE HAS SOME SORT OF PROBLEM AND UR NOT THE ONLY ONE.

You need to live in spite of her selfishness.

Don't even think of not living and letting her win.

You deserve to live more than you know, I know it hurts the way she is doing you, but this will pass and you can leave it.

Do you have anyone, relatives or friends that you can depend on for help?

If not have you tryed calling the crisis hotline? you can find this in the phone book toward the front emergancy numbers I believe.

These are 800 numbers and you can call and talk to someone 24 hours a day.

They can help guide you and help you decide what is the right course to take to solve this problem.

You cannot handle this sort of thing alone and need to get some sort of counseling so you can cope with this and know how to handle your mother and the sitution you are in.

So what ever you do hun, don't give up on yourself and let this crisis win over you and cause you to do something that you can't reverse.

Try praying also and turning your problems over to God, he already knows your needs and wants to help, if only you will call on him.

Have you turned to God's word the Bible to see what he says about these sort of things.

Your mother is such a cruel selfish person and she is not deserving to have such a sweet and thoughtful person as yourself.

I'm so sorry for you, I hope and pray you will find help tonight and the sooner the better for you.

God does love you and wants to help, get your Bible and learn of him,study and meditate on his word and this will give you some comfort.

Get to know his will and how to please him and serve him with a clean heart and you will find wonderful blessings to come.

But we must believe that he is and he is a rewarder of those truely seeking him.

I pray that you will get the love and help you so much deserve dear, just don't give in to these feeling's you are having, this is what Satan wants to happen.

So be strong and hold your head up high and tell yourself you are going to beat this and not let Satan win or your mother.

Prove them a lier and they are wrong, be determined.

And remember someone out here loves you and so does Jehovah God.

aww its going to be ok!!!

Dont worry about what your mom has said to you. Im sure that underneath everything she has said and done, she really does love you. There is nothing that you can do about what she says to you, or about what she feels she has to do. All that you need to worry about, is having fun with the friends that you have right now. Stay close with them and make sure that they know how you are feeling and how much trouble you are going through right now. I realize that one of your friends just passed away, but thats not a reason to give up on the great gift of life. If you gave it up, you could never get it back. Im sure that you would not want that,no matter how hard some things can get. Believe me, I have been through some pretty rough times too, and I know a lot of people that are going through really tough times right now too. One of my brothers friends is actually having an extremely tough time right now too. I think that what is helping him, is talking to one of his friends. Just make sure that you have someone there for you that you can talk to.

If you want, you can email me, and I can try and help you out, or make you feel better. :) heres a smile for you. I feel that a smile can always help me feel better. =)

I think you should find something in life that DOES make you happy and something that makes you feel like life is worth living. like, maybe try dating someone or tell your mom that you are sick of it and that she needs to change and if that doesnt work then just do what i said, find someone that makes you happy. I totally know how you feel, i have felt like life isn't worth living sometimes but then i found the greatest person i nthe world, my boyfriend. So just don't think about everything that's bad in your life, concentrate on finding something good and positive. I really hope this helps you.

You did not say how old you are, but you must stop feeling sorry for your self. Don't believe everything you hear. There are times when we all at one time or the other feel this way, but you have to hold on. I wish I could help you more. Life has a lot to offer, give it a chance!

my life is unhappy too and sometimes i feel like i don't want to live anymore but you have to realized that even though you have unhappy days life is good in a way. But you should talk to someone like a counselor in school she will listen to your problems andgive you many advice. If you need to talk to some oneyou can always email me :] [im 13 btw]

Its okay to feel that way ..you're mom is mess up foe saying all thoes bad things about you she's not a good mother to you. I hope you will get better and become a woulder lady that you're mom never became

fight through it. if you kill yourself you will prove everyone right, and you dont want to do that. there are a lot of people who love you even if you dont know it. this bad time will go away, when you get older get married to a good man who loves you for you and when you start a family you will be glad you didn't die.

Stay Strong! I'm rooting for you!!

Unless your mother is married, she the right, to have a bf. But she does need to, make room for you in her life. Sorry about the loss of your friend. But you're a teen, you need to make new friends, start a relationship, and date. You need a change of pace, a new life style and a refill of enthusiasm. Your life will get better, as you get older.