Help! I have a confession to make! ?

Thank you for sharing that with us, you really opened your heart up for others to help. First of all, your life is in gods hands... dont believe some fortune teller about anything, god is a god of miracles. One thing I see missing here is that you do not have an outlet to express your feelings. I would seriously suggest excercise or a hobby that you like. Also do not be ashamed to seek counseling, it will help you to work through your feelings.. and get to accept yourself as you are. There are also some great meds for OCD as well, do not be ashamed to ask for help. The world is superficial but many women would take a nice and sincere man, over any material attributes. Looks dont mean anything, neither does money or status.. you can have all those and still no love.

Also, if you can get a bible.. this would be a great time for you to start reading the new testiment. You are young and have your whole life ahead of you, so you want to make sure your in gods hands to guide you for his purpose. The world is open to you my friend, seek and you shall find, knock and the door will be opened. And, get rid of the porn that is a doorway to darkness.. God will deliver you .

Here's the thing: God is hard to understand. In fact, you will never understand why He allows horrible things to happen in life. But, something I do know is that God only puts us in situations He knows we can handle. Unfortunately for us, God has soo much faith in what we can deal with. I often find that I'm put into situations that I can't handle on my own. And, you know what, I can't. It's God by my side that gets me through the really difficult times. Although I haven't been through nearly as much as you have, I sometimes feel the way you feel. I am also very self-conscience and feel the stares of others, but I try not to let it immobilize me. Get out of you apartment and try something new! It might make you feel uncomfortable, but you never know, you could meet someone who thinks you're amazing.

And just for the record, not all girls are looking for those things in a guy. There are girls out there who care more about the personality and companionship than looks and fancy degrees.

God does exist. You just have to believe. And I mean REALLY believe. Not just say you believe because you need a miracle. And when you do that things will start to fall in place. Not immediately, but eventually. You just have to be patient.

You will get no useful help or advice here.

Talk to someone trusted. Probably not family.Try a teacher/lecturer? Someone who knows the city you live in. See about getting into some serious therapy.

There's a long rough road ahead, and the only person you'll ever really be able to trust to walk it is yourself. Try not to be so hard on yourself. If you give up on you then there genuinely will be no-one to help.

And steer clear of the churchies. Especially the psycho fundie ones. They'll babble at you, tell you they cast something out, and to pray more and pretend that they have helped.

Man there is a God don't ever question that. Don't it say in the Bible that we go though hard times, we only get what we can handle n god is always there when we need him, he never leaves us or forsakes us. U have to let go of things I think n forgive. The things u go thu in life only make u stronger. I went thu heaps of **** in my life but it don't matter now cause God helped me out of it. Stop masturbating man God don't like us doing that. God's got plans for u, never doubt him. Is there things in ur life u need to change, give up or start doing?

U can't just sit around having self pitty it's a sin n God ain't going to answer ur prayers if u r in self pitty. U have to help God get u where u want to be, he want just do it for u. go to a church n get some nice people in ur life. I go to a pentecostal church n I find it to be a trust worthy church filled with nice people. Be careful what church u go to some can be cults.

seriously , by how you told your story you really are a big damn loser. i could almost imagine... plus you masturbate a lot. you got some real big issues dude.... all you want is a girlfriend after all your whole story of life? i mean come on ! and you would put blame on to God for all that? and even think He doesn't exist? dude you've done many bad things especially to your own dead grandmother. why in the world would the karma not come back to you?

plus how come you would think your dad would not help you? if he didn't want to help you he would have not even dare talk to you or say no. you expect your dad to give you gas money? dude your 21! you should buy your own gas money for that! plus that's all you ever do, your not trying to look for something recreational to put on, and trust me having a girlfriend is not the answer to all your damn problems. you made them, you face them you solve them! don't be a baby expecting God to do everything for you, that's why He gave you freedom and life!

man your such a child! plus also why in the world would you care about the people around you? why ? do you care about them too? screw them and what they think! and just don't mind them! its not as if they are gonna eat you! if you keep minding everybody around you you really wont get any friends nor even a girlfriend at all trust me, so throw that and wake up! still a virgin? then go find a whore house and someone to **** with instead, solve!

all I'm saying is you gotta move on and wake up, your living a dream in your head you want to happen but will never happen, the only best thing you can do is make of what you have for now, you still have your life ahead of you, and forget that fortune teller thing. if you keep thinking about it the more it will happen , don't be a fool on what others have to say for you, you are your own person. and do something about it. go gym, read books, have lesser more of masturbating(no offense). fix your image, stop sticking with your past and forget it, what good will it do anyway if you keep remembering and sticking with your past right? and think about this, be thankful you are alive and blessed still, you know very well there are people out there who have lived more worse than you ever had, most even died young. consider yourself to be still lucky you are alive and made it this long in your life, it just means you still have many many chances of changing your life man, others didn't have that chance so you better be thankful at least, you just have no idea.

enough with the lonely music, look for some kind of tune that will say i can get up still even how much harder i will keep falling, or you wont give up. try fixing your image and habits, change your look, and look for something that your sure will make an impression with people, just keep looking t the mirror and see what you can change there with yourself, go gym like i said before, don't mind what people say and don't even find the time to look at them when you pass by them, just look straight where you wanna go and don't look anywhere else.

and as for all your grief and and what ever you have, try writing them all in a notebook, like diary, that way all your bottled up feelings of anger will go away, you can try also drawing to pass time as well with it... just try looking more positively in life and be patient dude. your time will also come too...

if any man is in christ he is a new creation the old things are passed away..god isnt a vending machine where you put n a prayer and expect your life to change..god is a relationship..he accepts you as pathetic as you are..bt loves you reveal you a higher path. finding his ways..holyness may not seem like fun but you know it sure keeps you out of trouble, but the richness in being loved by god your desire change, you stop thinking about yourself all the time and start focusing on how you can be a blessing to others. if you live like that others end up likeing genuine generous selfless people they are a joy to be around..jesus said deny yourself pick up your cross and follow me..if you are tired of your life invite jesus to be your lord, learn of him follow him...

My friend, I could try to advise you but I'm not qualified. You need professional help. I can tell you that God is real and that the Bible clearly lays out how you should live your life in such a way that will make you as happy as you will allow yourself to be. It gives definite structure, direction & instruction on what is good & what should be avoided. Speak to a church pastor for assistance. You have nothing to lose but your misery.

hi and wow

you shouldent be ashamed that your a virgin

and the part about God

(watch paul washer on youtube)

your not a loser

God is real

dont watch porn

fortune tellers are stupid

you dont have bad karma

enrique iglesis is the best

we dont need to knoe you hjdghjfh size

and thats about it

you can get a girl

:) God bless

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I am sorry to hear of you troubles but God can help you if you seek his help. those who deny Jesus' love will find themselves in hell but you still have a choice to get to know him.