These are two poems out of four...feedback please? (I'll put the other few in the next question)?

I apologize in advance for the long read (it needs to be split in 2 or three…one for each few poems…sorry). Also some of it is a bit depressed because I do have depression, but I’m not some mess lol I am a very happy girl some times….anyways please read and enjoy and give me feed back for each poem just looking for opinions/thoughts…please and thank you to everyone that answers!!!

***Blue Lightning***

*This was written a month ago*

Strike my heart,

Tear me apart.

Day after day I cry,

I just want to fkn die.

I am empty and feel bad,

When nothing is missing I'm still sad.

Lightning shocks my tears,

As my heart is stricken by spears.

I am lost in my own feelings,

Hurt and scared by what you call nothing.

Give me what I deserve,

Hit me and break my last nerve.

Just be honest and say you don’t love me,

I'm in enough pain the world can see!

He's not with me anymore,

He just walked out of the door.

I am sad and alone,

From that day on he's been gone.

I don’t know where I went wrong,

But that day you took my hearts song.

Now my pain strikes like lightning,

Left me without a song to sing.

Every tear that falls here,

Is calling him to come near.

I beg for strength to fight,

Against the loneliness he gave me that night.

About him I am so confused,

And because of him my heart is forever bruised.

I don’t need to stay alive,

I just need me and my knives.

Just to make cuts which I need,

To show him how my insides bleed.

He doesn’t realize how happy I'd be,

If he'd just come back to me.

If not let the lightning strike again,

The next strike shall be my end.

ᐕ Life Sucks ᐙ

*these two were written a few months ago*

I'VE LOST ALL HOPE,

I DO NOT FEEL,

ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN,

YET NOTHING WILL,

MY HEART POUNDS HARD,

NO BLOOD FLOWS,

MY SOUL POURS OUT,

AS PEOPLE STEP,

THEY TRAMPLE ME,

WITHOUT ONE CARE,

MY BAD LUCK IS MINE TO KEEP,

DON'T GET TO CLOSE OR YOU'LL SOON REGRET,

THE FACT THAT WE EVER EVEN MET...

MY HATRED IS EXCELLING,

MY LOVE FOR YOU DECREASING,

YOU SEEM TO LEAVE WHEN I NEED YOU MOST,

MY LIFE IS AS STATED BEFORE,

A LIVING HELL FOR ALL TO BE TORTURED,

NOTHING IS WORTH MY TIME ANYMORE,

NOT EVEN LIFE ITSELF.