So dear folks, your essential desires finally being fulfilled...?

Like a minnow in the sea

I swim in a vast amalgamation of gloomy horizons. The water's edge is hazy, some fish I have passed have told me a great deal, they know the sea front and back, but they don't know everything... I see a faint light penetrate the darkness and I wonder about its figurative source-- Doubtless I live as a minnow should, carry on day to day tasks, penetrate greater depths than before, expand my territory. I am a willing amphibian who has some faith in a higher being, and lives life just as I am-- a unique minnow among countless fish, where the colorful, vibrant coral reflects the mystery and excitement of life

Sometimes I feel depressed because I can't fully comprehend reality.. and because I don't have control over where I'm headed when I die.. Other times when I feel loved by my friends and family I feel happy that I'm not alone.. It switches back and forth between an existentialist crisis really.. and it can only be cured for weeks and months at a time by love from a significant other.

That's how I feel.

Edit: I've tripped on LSD causing my senses to be altered.. and my mind to have full control over my body. You are right in your assumption that we have a material body with limited senses, but it is only in this world that we perceive. Sometimes I think to myself that there is no life and there is no death, just separate realities and states of consciousness. I just wanted to share that with you.. however because I come back to this reality my previous paragraph still holds true and that is what I experience on a daily basis.

It is all due to the extraordinary and supreme grace of the Lord Almighty.

Like a curious and profoundly thankful guest.

Empowered with the knowledge of my true essence.

...Like a TV antenna fluctuating between frequencies

...enjoying my life and moving on - thanks for asking...