is it normal to feel like this?

Its perfectly normal, to be expected.

At some point down the road, that heavy ache will subside a little. Then after some more time has passed, you will notice its eased off a bit more. Then eventually, you notice that you don't think of the loss all the time anymore....

Until finally, you realize one day, you are happy, optimistic, and you are feeling passion for something or somebody again. It will just creep up on you like that, you won't even realize that you've felt that way for a while, that it just happened.

Been there, sorry for your loss...there are plenty of websites and resources available for helping with grief. Research some when you are ready. There are even support groups if you want to share with others who have had the same experience.

Give it time, I promise you will say "I never would have believed it, but I am okay now..."

honestly i felt the same a while ago

i turned to god and got most of it back somehow and even realized what i was doing was not right. all praise is due to god The Almighty things happen for reasons so take lessons from it...true peace and help does not come without the help of god for me..idk maybe this helps u.. :) i am still trying to get back the optimism passion and joy for life :) just be patient it will all come back hopefully

Losing a love one is the hardest thing that can happen to you.

Right now you won't enjoy the joyful or happy stuff in your life.

you will go through a grieving process as well.

In time you will heal.