Pls help me,ps:no offensive comments?

I apologize for this long story,

Here it goes

Last year I've fallen in love with a man that I shouldn't reason was he was a family man.I lost my virginity 2 him yet I don't feel guilty as my ex was doing the same thing while we were in a relationship his reason was he had urge of having sex.

On July last year,he told me he wanted 2 break up our relationship reason was he's unable 2 play the stake 2 high & he has many commitments 2 do.At the same month,I hinted him between a girl & his wife who he'll put in first his reply was his wife he says even both of them got into divorce his heart will still remain 4 his family.I feel happy as all these while I can sense he's a family man,b4 these I told one of my lady friend about our relationship she told me 2 break up this in order I feel of foolish things like suicidal.

After broke up we still remain as good friends,sometimes I'm unable 2 control my feelings 4 him whenever I meet up with him I do feel excited like I'm meeting 4 the 1st time.Normally I'm the first one SMS or call him first unless he calls or SMS,when I don't SMS or call him I feel very worry but sometimes I did it the wrong time eg last Wednesday I called him right the end he told me he couldn't talk much as his wife is beside him.

This coming Tuesday/Wednesday I'm going 2 celebrate my birthday with him again,I'm feeling excited I'm loss of words whenever we meet up.

My questions are

1.How to control my feelings without letting him know?

2.Am I 2 over-obsessed in him like the psychiatrist told me?

PS:Pls NO offensive comments

With blessed thanks 4 reading my story