I dont really knwow what to do at this point? Advice?

Hi! I went through the same thing. Sounds like depression, or something along those lines. Go see a counselor. Talk things out with them. A counselor will want to talk to you about this, and they'll always be there to listen as well as give advice.

There's a quote that says: The best time to make friends is before you need them.

You must have the ones you ask for help as friends before asking them. Pick a couple of people you feel they've got a good personality and try to get closer to them. Be there for them when they need you and they'll sure be there for you when you need them, if you become true friends.

You can ask your parents, siblings or cousins for help and you'll see how it'll work out.

Try your best and, hopefully, it will work.

GOD bless you...

Go and see a therapist. Do you have depression? This sounds like depression. I have depression and feel the same way.