I'm starting to get worried I was raped a few years back?

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This was back in 2006, I had just started dating a guy for about a month. Me, him, and two of his friends went to the beach one night with a bottle of rum. (Stupid Stupid, I know).
 We were starting to relax, and I remember having one sip of Captain Morgans, then a couple minutes later, I remember feeling extremely drunk, and just laughing hysterically at who knows what, then laying down in the sand and blacking out. It all happened in what seemed like 5 minutes, I never really thought about it till now, but I probably only had half a shot glass of drink. I feel like an idiot about all this.
I remember briefly waking up for maybe 5-10 seconds and it was dark and my hair was in my face, and I think maybe I was being rolled over. I think I was on a bed?
The only thing I remember for sure is the morning. I remember being back at my place, and having to rush to my class, feeling really yucky.
I alway equated it with a hangover, but admit I never made myself think about it until I started having memories of that 5-10 second awareness recently. Who even knows if I am just making up memories or what.
I eventually broke it off a few months later because he was just turning into a controlling jerk, with too much of a violent temper.
I am disgusted with these feelings and thoughts. I just hope I'm reading too much into this.
A few years prior I was sexually assaulted in an airport family bathroom, and that is a whole other boatload of stuff I just don't want to talk about. I just feel like I have a target on me. I have never told anyone, I could NEVER tell my family, it's way too embarrassing. My mom is so judgmental, I would never want her to know.
 I just needed advice from the anonymity of the online community.

Asim · Accepted Answer

"Life is one of those races in nursery school where you have to run with a marble in a spoon kept in your mouth. If the marble falls, there is no point coming first. Same is with life where health and relationships are the marble. Your striving is only worth it if there is harmony in your life. Else, you may achieve the success, but this spark, this feeling of being excited and alive, will start to die. 

One thing about nurturing the spark - don't take life seriously. Life is not meant to be taken seriously, as we are really temporary here. We are like a pre-paid card with limited validity. If we are lucky, we may last another 50 years. And 50 years is just 2,500 weekends. Do we really need to get so worked up? It's ok, bunk a few classes, scoring low in couple of papers, goof up a few interviews, take leave from work, fall in love, little fights with your spouse. We are people, not programmed devices. "Don't be serious, be sincere."

Let bygones be bygones…!!!

Don’t Worry… Be Happy… Enjoy Life as it Comes… Keep Smiling & Good Luck...!!!

? · Answer

Gosh. I am sorry that occurred to you. I too was once type of raped(sexually molested) as a baby. I instructed my Mother on the time in the one approach an eight 12 months historical would and she or he both did not comprehend me or did not beleive me. I bet you would no longer inform anybody and also you would no longer get confirmed fro some thing. I feel that you just ordinarily wouldn't have an STD in view that you might discover signs. But the one approach you're going to realize for certain is to be confirmed. Please,honey get couseling. If you do not your soreness gets worse and you may also difference as a character. I am sorry you skilled such abuse. I had been there and you're no longer by myself. Please Email me in case you EVER desire to speak approximately it-Women to Women. Any Man would no longer comprehend all you've gotten been via.

Jackie · Answer

You did the best thing you could do when you broke up with him. There is no target on you, I promise. Being a girl is tough, and the best thing you could do is move on. If you mother would judge you for something you didn't do, then she is the one with the problems. I remember when I told my mother that I was raped by a boy I had dated. The first thing she said was "Well, how could this happen?!". Insensitive, right? But telling my family was a good thing, because it explained why I did a lot of the things I did. 
Ultimately, it's your decision but holding it in is never good.

? · Answer

Well it's definitely weird that you got so drunk...did you drink from the bottle for from a glass me made you?
chances are you could have been, sorry

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