Wat do each of these poems mean? The second is a reply to the first?

Hello, apart from the grammar of these poems being atrocious (I literally struggle to read poems without punctuation) they're obviously about depression. The first one is about the "shadow" of depression - how people become stuck in that bad frame of mind. How they become lethargically aware of their position but due to their state of mind are unable to help themselves.

The second poem is slightly better the first and a little bit harder to understand. From what I understand it's about a person who dreams "in the future" - as in always thinking about being happy but being unable to act upon it. He realises that the door to recovery is right there in front of him but he just needs to take it - thus meaning he's no longer dreaming of recovery but instead trying to find his way to act upon it. There are a few conflicting messages in the poem and I'm not sure who "he" refers to? The naughty pastor perhaps? But even so, I have no idea what the relevance of the pastor is. Clearly the poet who wrote this (whom i suspect is you) is writing from their personal experiences - I'm sure it makes sense to him/her but to me it is a little obtuse.

Hope this answer helped.