I feel like a bad girlfriend?

So my boyfriend who was the love of my life didn't have minutes for the first two days at the bbeginning of this week and he got minutes back on Wednesday and well were supposed to hang out tomorrow because I won't be home for the next two weeks cause I'm going to this buckeye girls state thing and thhen I'm going to chicago. But instead he's staying at his grandparents house and also he's really busy and I started doubting if wed ever see each other and now we broke up and I don't know what to do? I mean he said I was to pessimistic and I'm sorry and I've learned my lesson no matter how often I text he won't answer back. What do I do?