do you find it hard to accept help?

i have a 2yr old boy and just recently moved out into our own place, while we have had alot of things on this year like holidays, weekends away etc i am struggling money wise, im not in mountains of debt, but its got to the stage i know i need to cut back on things. we have a wedding commin up, on my exs side. i initaly said we'd go but with another holiday a week later and with having to replace 2 tyres on my car im stressing over money! i spoke to my sons nanny said im not sure we can make it due to lack of funds, of course she tried talking me round and as much as i appreciate everything she said and the offer of £200 for hol spending money and £1000 to sort out christmas, its this i find very hard to accept.

i dont understand how people find this easy to accept fropm others, do people feel bad taking things like this? i know its my sons nanny but i dont want to ever feel like anyones got a hold of me and i think why should she put herself out so i can do the things i want to, isnt growing up learning that you cant always do everything you want? im 29 and myself an the ex, athlough split before our son was born are on ok trms, as in we dont fight but arent overly friendly. what would you think of this situation, and are you able to accept help?