my puppy was put down last night and i cant stop crying?

my beagle, stella, was put down last night. it was about an hour and a half to two hours after I got home from my very first junior high dance. I missed all the dances in grade seven, so this was my first.

she had problems processing some types of meat protein, as far as I understand. she had tons f fluid build up in her tummy. she used to be s skinny and active, but then she gained tons of weight in her tummy. she just got so round and swollen. it was scary. a couple days ago, she was taken t the vet t get a needle to drain the fluid. this was s that the vet could see what was going on.

she was shaky. and she kept getting shakier and shakier. she couldn't get up the stairs, by the time I gt hme frm the dance. when she did, she started thrwing up. my parents took her to the vet, and when they got home two hours later, she wasn't there. she had been put dwn.

the wrst part is, she was almost four. ALMST four years old. she is- was younger than my other dog, daisy.

I miss her s much. everything reminds me f her. and I just cant stop crying. the hair I had wiped frm my hands ont the bathroom wall in the shower even reminded me f her.

I cant stp crying, and I have such a head ache. I was excused frm school, today, but I have the privellage f being in a band festival, tomorrow. the thing is, I wnt be able t play. I will still have a massive head ache, and garunteed I will burst out crying the minute I put my face t my mouthpiece. I will be a disgrace t my famous band teacher, t my band, t my school, and I will embarrass my boyfriend and friends. I dnt care about that at all. I just want t stp crying, because I feel like I am letting her dwn. I cant see my keyboard at all, right nw. nt thrugh the tears. not t mentin my keybard is brken, so I seem very uneducated and like I cant speak English. thing is, its quite the oposite. I just cant see what I am typinf vry well. I am srry, but I am trying my best to type well.

I really need advice n hw t stop crying and to help me stay calm and stuff. it would e very much appreciated, and thanks for your time