Thoughts on if I was molested as a child.?

I've thought for years that I was sexually molested as a child, but never remembered any details. I just want your thoughts. By the way, some parts are kind of sexual.

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1: I masturbated very young. I started around 4 and would do it daily until I was about 18 years old.

2: When I was younger, I would read stories of abuse and sexual assault while I masturbated. I know that sounds REALLY weird. I remember reading a story about a father molesting is daughter in a magazine and would always "use" that story.

3: I remember very distinctly my female neighbor "J", who was about 8 years older than I am, telling me "if you tell anyone, I'll kill your mom" and threats like that. I'm not sure what they were regarding, but I am CERTAIN that she would say things like that fairly often.

4: My mom told me a few years ago that when I was about 5, my aunt (who was my doctor) found something "wrong down there" and told my mom she would call CPS if she kept letting me hang out with the older kids in my neighborhood. My mom said she doesn't remember all the details...

5: Apparently in lower elementary school, I told my playground attendant that "J" left me alone in a tent with 2 neighbor boys and "people" were sent to the house to investigate" I don't remember that happening, but my mom told me.

6:Whenever I think about sex, read erotica or picture a sex scene, I ALWAYS picture "J"'s house. I'm a 25 year old, married woman and haven't been there since I was 10 years old.