Reading inspirational stories make me feel more depressed and life feels pointless?

It seems whenever I read some people's success, the material confirms me being inferior than others due to lack of talent and/or money. I'm at my 30s and found there is nothing I can do to change the situation.

Without talent, I can only work as a security guard working 300+ hours a month earning less than $1,000 monthly. The capital society is about competition, not cooperation. Either talented people with hard work or people with family background through crony capitalism would be considered successful or at least accepted.

I'm neither smart nor athlete, but clumsy, unlucky, short, unhealthy, forgetful, and have many other disadvantages. Nothing seems working unless I win lottery top prize but even that seems to be rigged in my country. (no winner's photos had ever been shown)

Is there still hope in life? Please don't refer me to inspirational stories like Nick Vujicic because disability pension in German is higher than 70% of workers' wage in my nation. People studies for years to become civil service workers which roughly earn the same as German disabilty pension. Many who fail several times eventually commit suicide all the time here.

Don't talk about religions 'cuz they only wanted $ when I attempted forcing myself to believe in them. Most of times people would say "hang in there" but other than miracle (winning lottery top prize) the rest of my life would still be lived as a wage slave. Is it pointless to live?