I feel so lost....?

First things first, stop feeling sorry for yourself. I'm not trying to be mean, I went through a period like this and yes it sucks so bad but the only way to change is to MAKE CHANGES. Be proactive! :) Write down some SMALL goals, even if it's just "shower every day" or "wash all the dishes every Thursday" and write lots of little goals that you can achieve and you'll feel so good for ticking them off! What makes you happy? Painting, music, nature, animals, driving, having a warm bath? DO THOSE THINGS. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE it is sooooo important you deserve it so much! If you are laying in bed and it's 2pm and you think there's no point getting out of bed because you've already wasted half of the day: get out of bed, have a shower, put presentable but comfortable clothes on and go and sit outside for a few minutes. If you won't leave your house, sit on your deck, if it's raining, stick your head out the window and just take a breath of fresh air! Don't you dare listen to sad music, play something upbeat whether it's michael jackson or nicki minaj! Write down just ONE thing you're grateful for every single day. It could be treating yourself to a muffin, going for a walk and watching the sunset, seeing a pretty bird or being lucky enough to have a roof over your head, just one thing every day :) And look back on that every time you're sad and every time you look in the mirror and think 10000 negative things about yourself, say just one thing you like. The colour of your eyes? Your hands, hair, face shape, teeth, your laugh? The way your face lights up when you talk about something you love? Your sense of humour? Your selflessness? Your ability to make the perfect chocolate cake?

Most importantly, don't give up. Don't you ever give up because you are so strong and you have no idea how beautiful you are and how much you deserve to be happy. If you ever feel like no one loves you, I DO. That is SO cheesy and hard to believe but whatever you have done I forgive you. And whatever you look like, I think you're beautiful whether your hair is brown or blonde or green or pink. Whether you have freckles, no freckles or moles all over your body. Whether you're a size 00 or a 24, a 30AA or a 38G. You deserve your own love.

Way to many cold drinks with sugar. Can't stopped for the same reason cigs were put before us as commercials. Sell you an addition to them and as they make their money you get fatter and fatter and fatter and fatter and just plain fat.

Have you gotten in to talk to a therapist, they can be super helpfull. Also,it could be caused by a chemical imbalance and there's no shame in antidepressants.

Please see a counselor or a therapist. Getting into a support group may help.