Why do I feel so alone and depressed in this world?

You are holding up unimportant values and ignoring the important ones.

Stop trying. Be your self, make the most of life and someone special will come along, just dont put a time tale in place saying it will happen so soon as you simply cant say when that will happen.

It sounds like you are depressed. Do you know how difficult it is for a father to get custody? I think he cares about you more than you think. And you had friends to go to the prom with. Do you know how many people stayed home? You are admittedly finding flaws in yourself that others don't see. Save the money for scarring at the moment and get some professional help.

Maybe some medication will help you see clearly.

This is sort of a case of a chain of things needing to be addressed (one that affects the other). We feel alone when we don't feel connected to our fellow human beings. Were you out to your friends? Also, were they "friends" or were they more like good companions? The difference is that companions are people that you "do things" with (activities are the catalyst of the relationship). Where as "friends" are people with whom trust and totally uninhibited communication and acceptance with one another is the central catalyst of the relationship.

If they're just companions, don't feel bad. Most people to be honest only have good companions. Making true friends requires risk and investment in the other person, and the more secrets we have about our life, the harder it is to open up to people and share things that could be used to hurt us.

But the problem is that we all need to be accepted for the people we are. That's not just a human "want", that's a human *need* (one of the 6 fundamental human needs in psychology). When we feel alone, it's because we're either not loved and accepted for who we are, or because we're loved and accepted for an incomplete illusion that we put forth, strictly for the purposes of getting other people to like us.

But the problem is that when you know you're only loved for the illusion you put forth, you'll always feel like the real you is unloved. It's in our nature to need to show people the wizard behind the curtain, even if it's only one person that you'll ever show in your life. You need to find that person (or people) in your life.

That support network of people who love and accept you, is the foundation of an emotionally healthy person, because it allows you to love and accept yourself (part of being able to love you, comes out of knowing that the "real you" is in fact lovable to others).

Once you have that in place, you'll find it much easier to pursue others in loving relationships (and it will also give you far more confidence to pursue hookups if that's your thing as well).

In the end though, it all starts with you. It's important to put our "best self" out there, and it sounds like that's what you're focusing on right now. But in the end, all the physical critiquing stems from feelings of inadequacy... and the feelings of inadequacy stem from not feeling loved and accepted (which has far more to do with your support network as I explained above, then it has to do with you).

Work on the first one, and it will unjam the second one. Once the second one is unjammed, the third and fourth will pull free on their own.

What you put out there is what you get back. Invest in others and they'll invest in you. Let others in. And above all, never forget that you are a wonderful person who is deserving of love.

Best of luck to you Anthony. :)

becuase you are a drama queen, some people make problems just to feel pitty about themselves