Do I have a problem with liking boys too much?

Im on my moms account again but by the time I was 11 I had 4 bf and now I am single and want another bf. I cant go on dating websites but being single feels weird to me.Is this wrong? There is a boy in my neighborhood and we dated once but he asked me to have sex. And he was showing me a video one night and I got so bored I fell asleep. I woke up a minute later to him fingering me. And today we were talking and I was climbing a tree. I fell off and he rushed over to me and kicked me in the vagina. After all this I broke up with him and he still likes me and I am desperate for a boy. I don t want to date him but I don t like being lonely . No hate or rude comments please.

But is this feeling wrong?

What do I do?

Is this normal/ok?