Is it normal, never to feel angry/hatred?

from a social norms perspective, no that is not normal

but everything in life is a matter of perspective. different perspectives generate vastly different opinions and decisions.

you do feel anger, why else would you be bothered by what's happened?

i used to be like that. a very long time ago. feels like a distant memory from someone i knew, it doesn't seem like myself, but the physical record says its me and not another person (i guess this is normal for people with multiple people in their head?)

i used to be so kind and charitable, i didn't care if people took advantage of me, i was so open that i allowed them to torment and abuse me daily, and i would just take that abuse and suffer in silence.

but this was a long time ago, before i had problems. this was back when i was human.

i had anger, lots of anger, but i didn't know about it nor did i expose it to anyone. i know i had anger because i hurt myself constantly. i still have this problem and its difficult not to self harm because for some reason i feel like i deserve to be tortured daily.

the suppressed, unfelt, ignored anger built into hatred and eventually evolved into malice. it came out of me when i was 9, with the help of my first other. that malice is so set-in-stone if i was human i would have the disorder humans call psychopathy. but i'm no longer human, feels like i transcended into the next stage of being. (or maybe i'm just really psychotic and derealized to the extreme i no longer have a sense of self) i do feel immortal alot, but i know i'm not god... but my thoughts control the reality i (and you) exist in. if you call me delusional or crazy i won't be offended, i know i went crazy like 10 years ago. i just prefer not to wear it openly because there's alot of stigma against people who fail to experience reality from the socially accepted perspective of things.

so it comes down to a matter of perspective.

social norms, that is abnormal.

a different perspective? it can be positive or negative, you decide.

but be aware you do have anger about it, otherwise you wouldn't be asking this.

You suppress your anger. You don't have to forfeit so much of yourself and your money. You choose to do it.

Ask yourself why you do it. People will take advantage of you if you allow it. If that isn't what you want, stop allowing it.