What should I do about myself?

Change your life, its that easy, take some risks.

From what you say you should fit in very nicely with most other people in our materialistic world until you decide what you should do with your life.

Wait five to ten years for full adulthood. If every teenager and young adult who feels like this killed themselves, some quite lovely adults would not be around.

Hang around and give your miserable life some semblance of meaning as a troll.

Well death isn't a the answer for everything look Budd just hang on be your own person don't give a **** about what others think your you do what makes you happy go shoot up some coke if u like downers smoke some weed but by the looks of it you seemed depressed get some amphetamines or you got the other boring options but yet healthier look for some friends for people with your interest and all that stuff just hang in there my friend I've been through worst in life everything that happens in life happens for a reason it makes you stronger and more resenstant of what life's throughs at you pray to God or pray to the devil or the angel of death or in my culture la santa muerte what ever floats your boat theyll help you

Get someone else to kill you.