I'm a coward?

Your question is not really clear but it somehow reminded me of my past. So I had this disease where I kept on scratching myself and it resulted in various scars on my legs thighs hands and arms. Everyone kept asking what happened to me. For a year I kept on wearing long sleeves even in summer. I contemplated suicide thinking no one will ever like me and I am not normal and stuff. I couldn't go out confidently. I felt conscious when people looked at me.and now after four years I am OK. People still stare but I've accepted it. I know the right person will come along who will accept me with all my scars flaws and broken self and if he doesn't I'll be fine because that means God thinks I am strong enough to stay alone. All I want to tell you is that time heals all wounds and it gets better. and in our lives we all have been cowards at sometime or the other and its ok we can't be brave at all times.

Honesty is the best policy. It is good to be frank like you.

If you really want some wonders or miracles to take place in your real life like this,you should compulsorily resort to prayers. Pray at least for two minutes daily. Do it for two months initially. Pray honestly and sincerely with implicit faith, unshakable belief and unflinching devotion. Your genuine prayers will never go waste. Prayer gives you enough moral strength, spiritual splendor and divine powers, with which you can shape your future life as per your taste, comfort or conveniences.