Deaf Cowgirl 27

I posted it earlier on this what should I do when the family of my father's side turned against me.

What the story is that my father wanted to talked to me about moving out and asked me that I can moved back in with my mother and he moved out to stay with his mother in kentucky. My mother asked him if that what he wanted to do. He said yes. So few hours later after I finished cleaned out the truck for my mother and I went back to my cousin's house who let me live there for while until I find a job or new place to live. I was alright about it until one of my cousin, who suppose to be my best friend, jumped in my face and accusing me and I was like wait a min... what goin' on... I got kicked out.. the whole family jumped on me for something I didn't say... besides I told them they can ____ believe what they want and my cousin thought I was cussing her mother out. you know when people get mad and said it before they think. My cousin and I would be fighting (more below)

I am thinking about having a tattoo of a woman, a child a horse, a wolf and a eagle. I would like to put together as a story line. I am recovering from depression and a child, which I want a child but never happened and I am just divorce this year, (in my dream more of a little girl dressing in a dress). For strange reason I want to have a horse, wolf and an eagle on it as well. What kind of would be good to put together?

It is something like a story line of what I kind going through. if you have any suggestion, please feel free to put on there.. I am also gonna going to leave it up to the tattooist as well but any good suggestion or adivce would help...

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P.S. To some people who don't like tattoo or don't think that women should have it, Please don't lecture "Don't Do it" because I am a religion person or whatever. I have one tattoo on me of to cross and two roses. If don't like tattoo, don't answer my question on tattoos. thanks

I am a cowgirl who is living in a small city of Portsmouth, Ohio.... I am having trouble finding a job around here because of my hearing loss... I grew up in a farm and owns three horses. Can anyone offer a websites or what i should look under? I need some pocket money for myself to surieve on. I am tried to be jobless... PLEASE HELP

I am having my own issues to deal with here with my own problems. I keep feel like I am in depression again but a little different than I was last year with my ex-husband. I never have childern. But now I was with another guy who I thought he was in love with me. I keep on having a gut feeling that I may be pregant, after took two home preg testings and they were neg. and then I went into depression because my ex-boyfriend left me and went to er for depression, be without water (which I drink a lot of water though), broncitis. I told the doctor that I was not too sure about my preg. so he took my blood and unrine test for preg. it also turned neg. I am still feel like I have been eating a lot and some other things that some of preg sysmtoms (sorry about my spelling). Am I still can be preg if I am very conren that I am?

Please let me know. I am really apprecate for your tips and adivce. And one more question, what is your experince about those preg tests? Thanks.

Ok, I had been married once and now I am divorced. I had been dating this man who I really love for almost three months. He left his wife and moved back to his mom's house and I helped him babysit two nehpews. We all the suddenly became friends and then several weeks later we were ending up dating and gotten serious. He had filled me up with dreams, hopes, even he wanted to have family with me... Then two weeks ago, he told me that he loved me and that he need to go clear his head and that he would be back... Guess what, he never came back... I got the phone call from his wife saying that he went back with her. I was so heartbreaking for the second time around. Like I have died again.

He knew what hurt me the most was there was no ending at all so I can accept that he was gone.. I couldn't accepet it until i know for fact it was over. but I am moving on.. but it is killing me inside to feel that I am unworthy and feel like being used.

How you deal with this?

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Ami

I have been feeling down again since my newly ex-boyfriend left 17 days ago. I went through divorce from my frist husband Sept 12, 2007 after being married for Aug 5, 2006 to Sept 11, 2006 36 days and I finally got over depression 6 months later, but now with my new ex-boyfriend left me for Kanasa, I feel like I am went into depression again with a though of ending the pain once for all.

But I am so tried of being depression like this and it is hurting me so bad. I want to talk to someone who really can listen to me how I feel or whatever. My parents tried to help but it not working... I am seeking someone like a preacher, or Catholic preist or someone with spiritual minds. I am seeking online for help on batting the depressions. I am so tried of hurting and carrying the burdens of guilts again. What am I suppose to do without hurting myself again... Thanks

I just found two names of my great-great grandmother who was full blooded Cherokee. I looked up on the dawes roll and found two names. my mother and I want to talk to someone about how change our race to Native Americans? How can we do it? Any adivce?

I just found out that my great-great grandmother is full blooded cherkoete (sorry about my spelling) and my mom and myself were very happy that we just found out the name a native american. We are very intersting in native american culture. I am wondering that what can we do to join the tribe and study about them and how they live near Portsmouth, Ohio. I really want to fit in native american lifestyle since I was a little girl.

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I am thinking about starting a busniess store here in Southern ohio, which that hearing impaired and Vision impaired really need for their things. I have never open a busniess before but I thought it would be nice. I would love to start one around for my area.

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I am new to this whole idea of trying to have a baby. I just had a light bleeding and it is not time for my 28th day cycle yet and I am expercing some minor cramping and backache. Could be implanted now or what?

And what are the best tips or any good websites that could helpful?

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I have been only raising horses for almost four or five years and one of my horse just had a little colt about six days ago. Two of my horses are mares and they are more of trail walkers buddies. I wanted to show the saddlebred horse (who was just had the baby colt) and barrel racing but I know I have to wait for while before I do any training. Any tips and training?

I am one of those hearing impaired, (my left hearing is gone and my right hearing have some hearing left) and was select to be a part of jury. And do they provide interptor (a person sign Lanauge or special kind of device that deaf people or hard of hearing could understand what it was about?

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I am going through a lot but I am kind of doubting my faith and everything because of going through divorce, trying to find out who I am, and everything. I feel that I don't know who I am anymore and also feel like part of me is dead spiritually because I gave in to my ex-husband after a little over a month of marriage and then left me on Sept 11 2006 (I was very sick before and after marriage). I would love to doing thing like I used to do before I got married but I can't seem to like do what I used to do but always want to do something new and enjoy life. But with Christ, I really want to renewal my faith in Him and make up the life that I have been missing for long time. I am glad that one of my good old friend encourage me to go back to church. I think he is worry about me because of I am doubting my belief and offered me a biblestudy with him. How can I start renewal my faith and what are some good Bible verses? All Christian faiths are welcome to pinch in. And pray for me. Thanks

I know this friend for long time and he is one of my best friend. I am kind of nervous about start dating again and I am intersting in him for while since May of this year. I haven't heard or seen my future ex-husband since 9-30-06. I am ready to date again but I am kinda scared of dating because of what I went through last year. Should I try to go back dating again and give it another dating a shot?

Since I heard is it Japan's style of fighting. I was wondering if anyone heard it.

What's tokoshi kan Karate? have you take this before?

And also I am wondering that if martial arts also help you to focus on refinding yourself after not being in martial art class for quite for long period of time.

I am thinking about going back into Martial arts again. I am 26 years old and it been 11 years since I was in karate. I was on an yellow belt. Would it too late for me to go back and take those karate again?

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I am deaf but sever to profound in my left ear and I can hear some out of my right ear. My family thinks I can be able to hear all my life but I warned them not to get their hope up because I may be deaf like happen to one of my friends who went from hard of hearing to profound (can't hear at all. No or very little precentage of hearing left). I am kind of scared because I got use to hear some noises like tv very loud and dog barking or whatever... I know I will be okay if I lose my hearing fully but yet again, I am afraid of losing my hearing. Is this feeling normal even I am deaf but can hear some?

which including diseases and disorders.

I am deaf myself since I was born and I do sometimes get mad at myself or at the world for my deafness even at some people who I really close to even we didn't choose to be disablity or anything. My dad have some kind of rare form of Muscle Disease for 7 years.

I got depressed when my hearing husband (soon to be ex) left me thinking that he left me because I am deaf and wished I would be a hearing person or die. I got mad at the world for it. I went on into depression for almost 6 months until I met someone who is deaf himself got me thinking postive about my deafness and it took me almost 7 months get out of my depression. "Be yourself", "Just keep on going with your life" and "Stand your ground for what you believe in." are the qoutes that keep me going and also starting a new life all over again.

how can you help a person to think postive about himself/herself and let him or her know he/she is not blame for who he/she is?

I am not sure where to look for graphic or pictures for yahoo Group. Thanks