Jason

So for a long time now ive been really lonely and less than a month ago i barely had my first kiss. Yesterday night my best friend, whos a girl, asked if i could help her out. She asked if we could talked and explained that her boyfriend had just been kicked out of his house my his parents and is very depressed. we made up a plan so that he would come over to my house since her guardians dont like her boyfriend so that they could talk. i had never met this guy before but when he came i saw he was amazing, sweet, and so cute! their we're rumors around town that hes a bad boy and he is! he smokes and stuff. long story short my best friends guardian found us outside and told her to get home now. so she wouldnt get in trouble HE came up with the plan to walk her home but have him and I hold hands so it looks like hes gay. we walked her home hand in hand and he asked me to walk him to the corner, as we did he never let go of my hand. we we're next to an alley when we started flirting and eventually were up against the alley wall making out, i even felt up his *****, threw his hat to the ground, and was running my fingers threw his hair. its difficult to explain but after 3 min of doing so we kept walking, holding hands, and even kissed every now and then. we exchanged numbers and later that night i sent him a txt asking him what r we and he said "friends w/ benefits for now ;)". we were basically acting like a couple though and today im going to be home alone and he said he was coming over but so far i havnt heard anything of him and he dosnt answer back. i feel guilty and horrible but this could be the first time i would be in a relationship and he gives me butterfly's and makes me feel special WHAT DO I DO!!!1

I don’t know what I want. I thought I did. I thought I had everything figured out but maybe I don’t. Maybe everything that I thought that was going to be my future was all just an illusion my own excitement about being an adult made up. This morning I thought I could see myself waking up to the cloudy, dark, rainy morning in my Manhattan apartment. Somewhere sleek and modern, possibly rustic and hipster. That I would just wake feeling free and rested. Change into my favorite clothes; stepping out into the drizzle with just my hoodie and no umbrella. Passing the tall charming buildings that lined the streets and stopping at a café. I thought it would all be that simple but what if it isnt. What if my dreams of becoming something are all to difficult to come true. Writers don’t make that much money and im no good at math to be an Architect so what am I left with? What if I become like my parents or like everyone els? I don’t wanna become like them. I actually wanna be something. I wanna have my own grand sky-rise apartment. I wanna actually WALK INTO my closet. I wanna feel relaxed and easy in the morning. I wanna be care free but everything just seems so far out of reach. What if I don’t make it to college? What if I end up being a no one? Im so scared. I don’t wanna be like that. It terrifies me, I hate my life no and I don’t wanna hate it in the future. I just wanna cry and roll into a ball. I wanna feel safe and reassured my future is safe. Im scared.

All my life i have never been away from my own mother, she always been there for me and always has done her best for me. when i was just 4 we came here to L.A. 8 years later i have a step-dad and two half siblings. lately my at home family has been having troubles both financially and relationship wise between my parents. at this moment i should mention we are dealing with court cases because of a domestic violence case between them. this past winter i went and visited my moms family in NJ who i love to see and visit every year only this time i went alone. i fell right into place when i arrived. jersey has always been a love of mine and so has my grandparents, aunt, and uncle. during this trip i realized how happy and relaxed i was all the time. My family started to tell me how great it would be if i moved there, i would have my own room, go to school, wouldn't have to deal with siblings and they would support me. within a couple of days i was starting to consider it. the night i got back me and my mom were in the living room talking and she started to cry. she said they had told her that i was considering it and even thought she agreed and said if its what i want then she would let me go it hurts her allot. she began to say how she trys her best and now she thinks shes not a good mother and ect. i feel really bad but a part of me wants to do this. i want to experience more and do something with my life. i need a change. if i were to go i wouldn't be able to move back till after high school but by that time i'd be going off to collage. it will hurt my mom allot and it hurts me too to know i would be causing that pain but then again she said she just wants me to be happy. I WANT TO BE HAPPY, LIVE NEAR NYC, HAVE MY OWN ROOM, BE FREE, DRESS THE WAY I WANT, TO BE ABLE TO EXPRESS MYSELF! I need to know what to do or just some advise. please help, im so confused..

p.s yes my mom would come visit me every summer and winter and i would visit her too.

as you could tell i am a teen boy and lately ive really been into fashion and how i dress. Im not rich rich but not Poor either so i guess im mid middle class. I am Hispanic but not Mexican!!! and to be honest i don't like how most Mexican and other Hispanic boys dress. i hate all this swag stuff and ****. I am also gay but not a stereotypical. I dont put on makeup, dress colorfully, or like effeminate outfits. i like dressing like a boy (sorry if it sounds offensive) . Everyone at school says i talk and act white and its true. i dont like the many lifestyles and styles of Hispanic males and maybe its because ive never been in a ghetto neighborhood or been around other Hispanic people. all my friends are white and Asian. so based on this mini profile whats the best teen boy clothing stores for people like me? I like preppy looks and a bit of emo.

So i was wondering (since all my friends are obsessed with anime and henti) does anyone know of any gay ROMANTIC, not pornographic, anime and/or henti?

Okay so I personally have never been to Halloween Horror Nights ever in my life but now that ive gotten older and its all people at school are talking about ive come to the conclusion that I NEED to go. I wont lie; IT LOOKS LIKE A HOWL HELL OF FUN!!!! So now that me and a couple of my BESTIES ^.^ are planning on going I need a bit of advise, tips, and answers. If you can I would like some answers to these following questions and concerns

1- How much is each ticket at the gate?

2- Whats the best time we should go that isn't too late or too early

3- Are there any age rules and restrictions such as if your under a certain age you must be accompanied by an adult?

4- What are the scariest mazes and/or attractions (just so i could avoid them)?

5- Are the rest of the normal rides still open such as The Simpsons & Jurassic park?

6- Go on an empty or full stomach?

7- What should we go on first?

8- Will I cry for my mommy?!!!!!!!!!

Okay so I know this is gonna make me sound thirsty and well desperate but I swear im not that type of person...well not the thirsty part. Look, its been a wiles since I talked to someone who made butterflies flutter in my stomach or even made me smile.by just seeing they sent me a txt. I really feel lifeless and like all my senses were shut down. So if there any other gay teens 13-17 please txt me. People tell me I have a great personality. I would love to talk and be friends and maybe even more... sorry if I sound pathetic and like a looser. 818-221-9271

Like many American teens/children all over the country I have problems with my weight. Now I k ow what your all gonna say; "eat less and exercise more". Well guess what I'm done with hearing that. I need and want real solutions not the same thing everyone tells a love one when they want to loose some weight. I myself have been bullied and tortured over my weight. At the age of 10-11 I was d'être els overweight and looked horrible. Once my mother took notice she went into action. Long story short I lost a ton of weight. I look at those photos and I seem un recognizable. My face isn't full and round, I don't have a fat neck, and most importantly I don't have a double chin. Now fast forward to my early teens and I'm facing a new battle....stomach fat. I'm too embarrassed to go to the beach or water park and if I do go then I ear a shirt even when I get in the water. I'm having to deal with fat thighs, on big fat tire role, and man boobs. The tricky thing is, if I wear the right skinny jeans, the right shirt, basically the right outfit than u barely notice and that's where people don't even know. Have man boobs and a belly till I show them. Now the thing is I want to be able to love my body and not hide it. Just like any thousands of people I want to be proud when I take off my short, show off a great body, and even have a simple 4 pack. One of the major reasons I want too loose weight is. Want to start dating and also...I'm gay and no one wants to date a fat gay guy. Now it's up to me to beg for help from u the public. Please help. I'm sick of dealing with all this bull **** so if. Know any quick easy ways to just burn fat that'll be great. I really am desperate and sometimes even depressed. So I'm asking front he bottom of my heart for u to share what u know and help me.

Okay so just recently I have becomed a foodie so I was wondering does anyone know any cheap but great dessert/sweet food yearly subscriptions that deliver to your door

Currently I am planning a one way trip to Los Angeles on Amtrak. I was wondering how much does each ticket cost. It would be 1 adult & 3 children and how long does it take from Newark Nj to Los Angeles California

At least once a month I hit a low where I completely have everything about myself...e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. I just stare in the mirror and all these awful comments on myself come rushing out. I look at myself and ask god why. Wasn't born rich and beautiful like the people we praise. Why can't I be like one of those male models for Ambecrombie or American Eagle. Why can't I be one f those people that get looked twice at in the streets. Any advice on what to do during this stage?

Okay, so i have always grown up in a very mixed complex family. my bio father being Catholic and my mother along with her howl family being Mormon or The Church Of Jesus Christ And Latter Day Saints. Up till a couple of years ago we started going to church. As I have grown and matured in theses past years I have come to realized I don't want to be Mormon or Catholic...or part of ANY religion for that matter. Its not that I want to be Atheist i just don't like and get the point of religion. To me every religion is all like "BLAH BLAH BLAH MY RELIGIONS RIGHT AND YOURS IS WRONG!!! BLAH BLAH BLAH I CANT HEAR YOU!!!" and i just hate that. I do believe in god and i pray but i don't want to be part of any religion or go to any church. Most of all I don't want to go to my "Mission" and become an "elder". I WANT TO HAVE A LIFE, GO TO COLLEGE WILE IM YOUNG, AND FIND MYSELF. How do I tell my family that i don't want to be part of any religion but still believe and pray to god? they mite think im just a 14 year old kid who does not know anything so please sos. help!?!?

Okay so currently I am a teen male about to inter school in what will possibly be one of the most life changing years of my life, after a huge low point of my life and now I've moved to a new town a new state with a fresh start and I'm finally together with my HOWL family for once in my life and away from my step dad who abused my mother. I am ready to re imagine myself. I'm ready to be a new better, fresh person and stand out for being me. I already have my new wardrobe covered (only button up t's in plain colors, flannels, pollo, skinny jeans, and no more sneakers and tennis shoes; pretty much a smart, nerdy pretty boy look to go with my black framed point dexter glasses that some may say are hipster) but now what to do with my hair. I have always had messed up hair. Black, waves, curly, frizzy, out of control, fur ball that from a distance looks like an Afro. I don't know what to do with it anymore I mean for god sakes no matter how much gel, moose, and spray I use it can't stay clean cut. So here's my question, I've heard of Supercuts but there ratting are low so I was thinking maybe I should go to the JCPenny hair salon since they did an amazing job on my hair but 4 years ago; what do u think? Next, what should I do with my hair?!!!! It's driving me insane and even my family members are starting to think I should get a buzz cut with a line up since that's what all the men in our family gets but NO IM SICK OF THAT AND I DON'T DO GOOD IN BARBERSHOPS THAT'S WHY I ONLY GO TO HAIR SALONS BUT NO MY STUPID MACHO SEXIST UNCLE SAYS THAT'S FOR PUSSYS BUT I DON'T GIVE A **** ITS ALREADY ENOUGH HE'S MAKING ME GO TO THE GYM WITH HIM TO GET ABS ( which I'm thankful for though). Need help and advise!!!

Okay so not to be rude but I really dislike the lighting on The One World Trade Center at night; it makes it look fat and short and come on I can't be the only one. My question is are those just the construction lights or will there be placed new final lighting when it's completely finished (interior & exterior) to make it look futuristic and modern as showed in its night display plans? And what I mean by futuristic and modern is how they make it look in the movie Click when the main character travels forward in time to his sons wedding and in the background is OWTC as Ive always and still hope it turns out to look like at night.

Okay so I guess I said it wrong in my last question but once again IN WHAT EPISODE AND SEASON OF TEEN WOLF DOES STILES ASK DEREK IF HE WANTS TO MAKE OUT AND DEREK ANSWERS WITH A "YA BUT NOT LIKE THIS" !!!??!!!

Okay, CAN SOMEONE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TELL ME IN WHAT EPISODE AND SEASON DOES STILES ASK DEREK IN TEEN-WOLF IF HE FINDS HIM ATTRACTIVE AND WHANTS TO MAKE OUT!!!!

NOTE: If You actually take the time to read this than thank you it means the world to me

Uh okay, recently I just moved from L.A to Passaic NJ, honestly I miss L.A and everything back home but this is for the better, right? I know it's been hard and I've been drowning in not only despair but depression too. I feel lonely, helpless, and just like I'm gonna die or something but anyways that's only half the problem. Me and my mom wanna leave this town. Don't get me wrong it has history but its really crashed. Ghetto, poor, helpless are sum of the words to describe it. My mom and i stumbled a pon a little town called Nutley. Very small, nice, quiet, town almost like something out of a movie or T.V show. I could see myself happy again there. I envision new friends, exciting life, and a fresh new start; one where the past no longer fights against our happiness!!! Just writing about it is making me smile but something's wrong....School. The school is also amazing and "perfect" but after just reading threw the student hand book I feel intimidated. It's not like I went to a bad unstrict schooling back in L.A, I went to Walter Reed Middle School in North Hollywood but this feels different. I feel like this ones strict and mean and thats what scares me. I want things to be fun and exciting when I start, like back in L.A but I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore and it's scaring me :( so if anyone has advise or actually goes to John H. Walker Middle School that would be great. I just want to start off on the right foot. And if it helps we haven't been to been to the town yet, haven't looked for houses yet or even called up the school or anything but the research we've done has commend up all clean and spot less We have till mid August to move so we have time to settle in...but please I feel trapped and scared. I want my life back and I want to feel alive and happy again. Please help me :(