I Luv My Pets

I really hope someone understands how I feel. Please give me some tips. I recently realized that I am too fat. How do you get yourself to throw up by sticking your finger down your throat? I am scared to, so how do you get the courage? No negative comments please, for those who don't understand. If you don't agree with me, don't write anything. You are just going to make me feel worse.

I don't know if it's possible to love someone who doesn't love you back, but there's this guy. And he is so sweet and so kind, and so gorgeous! He isn't like normal guys. He doesn't car about being "cool". He's just... normal. Perfect. He's tan, and has darkish brown hair and dark brown eyes. And we were both on the cross-country team in 2011's fall, so we definetly know each other. He's going to the high school next year, so i wont see him. hes in my 1st period computer class. How do i get him to be close friends with me so that he can see my personality and maybe start to like me?

In gym right now, we are doing volleyball, and I am TERRIFIED of the ball. Everyone (guys mainly) is like "It's soft. It wont hurt." But they don't understand, and the guys act like I'm stupid or something. They don't really like me because of it. I need advice on how to NOT be afraid of the ball, because I just checked Progress Book, and I figured out that the gym teacher has been taking off points everyday because I "don't play". (I DO play, I just duck everytime the ball comes toward me.) I currently have a 69% in P.E. Please help me! I am so bad, that when it comes toward me and I tell myself I can do it, and I get ready, the "cool" guys always end up hitting it when I wanted to. :( No bad comments, please. I AM afraid of the ball, but I'm not afraid to admit it!!!!!