Soumoun

I'm from Ukraine, but this topic is very important to me for several reasons. 

And I would like to hear from you what you think is a problem objectively, not what you don't like personally for your reasons. Thanks. 

I want to put here my reflections on Russia. Today's world became too tight. It differs from the time when humanity was closer to nature and chaotic existence. Back then you could attack a neighboring tribe without a lawful reason.

You could just do it because you want to take their women, food, or other resources. Or, you could just start the war for the sake of practice not to lose battle skills with years.But, inside the tribe, there were certain rules on how to behave with your fellows. After all, a society can't survive without trust regulated by the law.With millennia humanity spread over the world. We became too close to each other. It became much beneficial not to kill your neighbors, but to train and mutually adopt experience.In that manner, the whole world became one tribe, where states are individuals with their own interests. But, relations between those individuals regulated by international law.Let's take the analogy with rebels against the law within the framework of the nation. There's always were such people who don't agree to obey the law. They're called "criminals".Thus, Russia chose this role in the international arena: to be a criminal and sociopath. Essentially, Russians say "we don't want to obey your laws we are acting according to our own rules".

After all, they pass through artificial selection. And also to survive they had to be better than a regular person. 

I'm preparing to emigrate to the U.S.: zealously learn English, reading books, watching TV shows, reading Wikipedia, BBC news, and so on. 

What things do I need to watch/read first? There's a lot of information, but I feel that I'm not focusing on the premier information. 

Like I miss things that everyone knows and consuming information that which some Americans knows. 

Thank you. 

I had a spiritual family

They were my friends and Mothers

But, now I hate them

I would kill my former brothers

My pastor is a fraud

I wish him to be dead tonight

And all the Church are idiots

To live the don't have any right

If you want to be a Christian, no one forbids you. But, if you don't believe in the biblical principle, you can choose an alternative lifestyle. 

African Americans' style? 

world? Or everyone speaks as Americans do? Is this a bad phenomenon that every-day people speak very simply? Or, vice-versa, the higher society was a similarity of a sect and was harmful to its members and outsiders? 

I feel compassion towards them, because they still may be saved. I do know that I'm lost forever. But, will God listen to my pears, or I'm so nasty, that God will not listen to them, despite I will pray not for myself? 

Because I didn't. I see the world, the people, and everything else as useless things. 

time. I imply text games or strategic games where you need to read a lot. 

I was in a sect and was waiting for the Second Comming. Then I left the community and realized that I really want to be with a female. But, unfortunately, I have deviations. It's not a result of moral decay or something.

Because I didn't practice promiscuity all that time. I just realized that I can't be with a woman of my age. I sexually recognize only females in the range between adolescence and approximately 28 yo.

I don't know what my realistic options. Or it's abstinence, or it's looking for a prostitute. But, I don't know whether I'm going to appear in hell for that. 

Or it's finding a very young girl, who wants to be with an older person, but in the condition that her age is sufficient not to contradict the law. 

another topic and abandoning the book. If I would just knew what exactly I need to read - but I don't have an opportunity to study in educational institutions. The areas of my interests are psychology, theology, philosophy, history, policy, literature, culture, science, etc. 

thought. 

I was expecting to live the after physical death for eternity. Now I expecting to vanish forever best-case scenario. Or, at worst, going to hell. How to deal with that thought? 

But, if I'm going to work in a regular job, reading a lot going to be unrealistic. Is that possible to master English to the extent where I going to be able to write for money in English?