jeanette n

A couple nights ago the restaurant I work for was robbed by two men in masks at gun point. It was one of the scariest things that ever happen to me. I thought they where going to shoot us all. It took everything in side of me to go back to work the next night and the whole time I was there i was anxious. Even when I'm not at work I find myself looking over my shoulder and jumping at sounds. I keep thinking a masked man with a gun is around every corner.

The police came fast after we dialed 911 but I doubt very much that they will catch them and it makes me feel very much like bad people can do just about anything and get away with it and that ultimately you are completely on your own.

I have a strong faith in God, but even now prayer and God's promise of protection is giving me very little peace.

Any suggestions on what I can do to feel better?

I work for a restaurant as a cook. I really like the servers on my shift so its not hard to defend them when I see them being mistreated. Since my boss took over the reigns there has been more and more cash shortages as time goes by. Something that wasn't a problem with the manager before her. The blame has been cast on the servers and I've seen several get fired with out any proof that they have stolen any money. It was just because they where on the drawer when there was a cash shortage. There is one girl that I worked with for a long time who works her butt off every night she is there that just recently got fired. 150 dollars was missing. I can tell you for sure she did not steal that money. She loved her job and it was just not in her personality. to do something like that. My gut tells me its our boss that is pocketing the money. I do not know how the higher ups can't see it. How so many shifts and so many people can be coming up short all of a sudden should raise a red flag for them. Today I padded the register with an extra 5 dollars after the server pre -counted down the drawer to make sure everything balanced correctly. I delberately did this in front of the camera and showed that I was taking the money out of my pocket and putting extra in the drawer. When my boss counted down the drawer she did not tell the server she was over. I'm sitting here wondering if they did a cash audit if that five extra dollars would even show up in the safe. I doubt it. What can I do to catch my boss red handed? Should I tell my boss's boss what I did and see if they actually do a cash audit?

I don't want to be filled with this much hate and malice for the human race. People are agitating

me lately with every split second of the day. I'm not much of a people person to begin with, so when I get in this kind of a grouchy fit its hard to get out of. I have to work with the public and oh my God I just feel like shooting everyone right now. I want to find a cabin in the woods and be there by myself for a week or two, but can't. I want absolute silence with out even the possibility of someone talking to me, but I have two kids, a husband, and a demanding job. Basically I just had enough of people. I don't mind the work. I'm a hard worker and like getting things done, but I really wish I could do the work with out so many people chit chatting constantly in my ear like whimsical babblers. How do I get out of this "everyone go away" attitude and replace it with a "I want to be your friend. Please tell me everything, because I am so interested in you and what you have to say" I need an attitude adjustment.

What made you angry at God?

He took money I had on a H&R emerald debit card and withdrew it on 3 separate occasions and then lied about taking it. Even when I told him I was going to call the police to report that someone used it without my consent he still did not confess. So now I have a police report out that will be investigated and on my own I found out where the ATM was located that was used and went to the location, a convenient store, and asked to see the security coverage of the ATM machine and sure enough it was my husband that used my card. When I faced him with the truth he still had the guile to deny it. This is money I put aside, not for bills, but for the children. Its my income tax return that I use for things like school supplies, clothes for the kids, and birthday presents. He stole over 500 dollars of my kids money. I can't believe anything he says anymore and trust is gone and I feel like our relationship is dead. Yet we have two children together and on my own I'm not sure if I can make it financially. I'm hurt and afraid for my future with a man who can without remorse lie to me and steal from his own flesh and blood, but would feel guilty about pressing charges and have already filed a police report and said I want to press charges on whom ever stole from me.

Have you ever taken abuse from a job? A boyfriend/girlfriend? spouse? child? friend? If you have was there a greater good that came out of letting them trample on you emotionally or physically? Are you able to forgive someone who stole from you or lied to you with out them making amends? If you haven't , when faced with adversity do you simply walk away and cut all ties , do you seek revenge , or do you fight until the matter is resolved? I am asking this question, because of my own adversities. Normally I avoid conflict, but I am being trampled on in all corners of my life right now and I'm not sure quit how to handle it. 10 points for best story.

I want to stop thinking about him, but can't. I have no idea why. There are attributes about him I really like, but instead of it being a state of admiration of a man of God its a state of wanting his attention and sexual fantasies about him. I want him to like me and that is so messed up. I am not delusional in thinking that one day I will be with him and we will live happily ever after. Its like one part of my brain is logical and understands that what I am obsessing over is unpractical and stupidly unhealthy and another part of my brain is trying to find ways to satisfy some unknown longing and they are at war with each other. Is medication the only way to stop uncontrollable obsessions?

I have a friend who used to be warm and engaging towards me. He is a lot older then me and I sought his wisdom. But lately he has not tried to start a conversation with me and seemed to be avoiding me. I didn't make much of it thinking he needed his space or was busy or distracted by other things. But last night he pissed me off. I was talking with a mutual friend having a heavy conversation when he started calling her from the back of the room for her to come into the other room, taking her away from me. I can honestly say that I don't remember doing anything to offend him and I'm just about ready to confront him and ask him why he has been acting so snooty.

I would never kill anyone unless I had to. For instance if my children where in danger of bodily harm I would kill in their defense. I just got done watching the movie "2012" and immediately was thinking what would I do if I saw the immediate danger of that scale coming towards my children. I never want my children to die a fearful horrific death with a lot of pain. This may come across as cold, but please don't take it that way because I love my children more then my own life. What's a painless way to kill someone? Keep in mind I would never do this unless I see a wall of water coming towards us or felt the earth beginning to sink below my feet, like as shown in the movie. I live in Florida with my 5 year old son and 10 year old daughter, our Sunshine state would be the first to go if world disaster strikes.

Ok so I came up with a creative idea to do tye dye shirts, but would like to somehow add words to it in a relatively inexpensive way. after the dye dries. Is there a product I can use to put words on a T-shirt without using some kind of press which I don't have? Is there a permanent ink or paint that I can use on cotton?

This is my dilemma. I have a 10 year old daughter who has a school lunch at 10:30 in the morning and a 5 year old son who has his lunch at 12:30 in the afternoon. They both get home at a quarter of 3. They are both starving. I let them have a snack and then they don't want dinner which is served at 5:30 or 6:00. I work in the evening so my husband usually has to deal with this and we disagree on whether or not they should have to wait to eat or not. I think they should be allowed a healthy snack like a yogurt or an apple when they get home. He thinks they should have to wait. What do you think?

I'm so hungry and I'm wishing there was better stuff to snack on in my fridge right now. What about you?

My husband wants me to do something in bed with him I really don't want to. I tried it and it hurts and I morally think its wrong. He is really into this kind of sex and I love him so much and wish in a way that I could give him what he wants so I can satisfy him. Would you put your self through physical and emotional pain for the sake of someone you love?

All my life I have felt disassociation with the rest of the human race. Sort of like my skin didn't really belong to me or like there was another creature that lived inside of me. There have even been times that I have talked, but it felt as if it was not my voice or the feeling as if the words I spoke was not a cautious decision. Its a sensation that is hard to explain. I am at times very anti social and at other times very friendly and out going. Everyone that has been very close to me has always described me as very moody. Switching from one personality or mood to another at unpredictable stages. I have learned to live with a lot of these quirks, but lately things have been getting worse with age. I will find myself in a car and have to take a few moments to figure out why I am there and where I am going. I am searching for names of people I have worked with for a long time and have even gotten stuck with having to search for my husbands name. My forgetfulness is really irritating to me because I relay on my automation so mush for my job, but find myself hesitating way to often. Its as if my mind finally had an over load and can't take it any more, but I'm not sure what my symptoms are indicating. To recap my symptoms are as follows - Disassociation, mood swings, personality change, temporary amnesia or frequent forgetfulness. What is wrong with me?

I started having sexually explicit thoughts at about age 3 or 4. I don't remember being sexually molested, but there are blank spots in my memory. This has bothered me for a really long time, I'm 34 now. Its as if I'm watching a movie and then it flashes forward spaces and I don't remember in between. When I was little I used to have strange fantasies about men dressing me without under wear and touching me. Recently I've been having strange fantasies about my pastor at church, ironically my father was a pastor. Both my sisters claim my father sexually molested them. He says he didn't. I don't know what to think and am making a trip back home to see all my family on July 14th. I hate not having all the pieces of the puzzle of my life, and the pending trip back home is causing me a great deal of anxiety. I wish I knew the truth about what happened to me as a little girl. What do you think?

I have a ear ache, tooth ache, about 5 canker sores, sore throat, and a head ache only on my right side. In the past kidney infections and SHARP pain only on my right side has affected me on more then one occasion. Is there some kind of disease that affects the right side of ones body. I'm trying to figure out why when I get sick or am in pain it always is on my right side and usually very chronic.

When I was about five I committed myself to Christ, but personal tragedy and family problems made me look else where for power I felt I did not have. I started to dabble in witch craft and that led to Satan worship. I did some things, some horrible things, including cursing God and doing a ritual to expel him from my soul. I'm not being funny when I say I was demon possessed. However the good news is I later reconciled with God and renewed my life back to Christ. I've had some major ups and downs in my life to say the least and my walk with God has been accordingly. I know that you can not have two Masters and I believe that I am still a Christian and have proof from the holy spirit of such. Now this is going to sound crazy, but at times I physically feel choked. I am tired of this spiritual warfare I fight in my life and if there are any demonic influences how do I stop it? My church is a baptist church, not very much for this kind of territory. I should also add that both my sisters have or are going through the same trauma and one of them had a mental break down and is now on meds. I don't want that to be me.

I am in the process of getting my Associate Art in Psychology Degree. Two years ago I committed a "sexual misconduct with an inmate worker" felony while I was working in the jail kitchen as a supervisor. It was consentual and I was going through a heart breaking devorse with my husband. Of coarse if I would have known the full consequenses I would have never done it, but its to late and I have resieved 3 years probation in which I have already served 2. After my probation ajudification is withheld, but I'm not sure it will help me get into the field I am intrested in. I know after 7 years they usually don't look into your past record. Does that 7 years start at the offense or at the end of your punishment? I know I will never be able to work in a school even though my offense was not against a child. By getting my record sealed how much will that really help me? How meny goverment based co. can look into sealed records?

Counsling adults is something I really want to do .

In our community there is a task force that helps people in need. A women, Doris Nugent, who lived all alone in our community died and left us no information about surviving relatives. Her house is being demolished and the task force has her belongings including an American flag that layed over her late husbands, George Nugent, coffin. We do know they had children but neither know their names or thier where abouts. Where would I start to do a search for these children? Is there anyone out there that reconizes the name George or Doris Nugent?

I have studyed this passage for days and I am woundering is the thing referred to as the "king" in the passage human, demonic, or man made. "And they had as king over them the angel of the bottomless pit, whose name in hebrew is Abaddon, but in Greek he has the name Apollyon" I came to find out Abaddon is a name used in LaVaye satanism as a demonic word for destroyer. The name Apollyon is used else where in scripture as the king of locusts and also shortned to Apolo. Apolo. Isn't that the name of the Shuttle? Can you see my confusion/