SpenceDiamonds

Thank you in advance if you actually read it and offer an opinion, I'll answer any of yours as thoughtfully as I can.

I've been going through a fairly dark downward spiral recently. I was introduced to drugs, which is slightly the problem but not nearly all of it. It mainly stems from a girl, imagine that. I told her that I didn't believe in love, based on my childhood and how f*cked up it was growing up. She didn't understand my side and well that was basically the end of us. Recently I have fallen hard for her, and told her how I felt, laid it all out on the line. She rejected me, now I'm pretending like I don't have feelings anymore and she is coming to me for advice about guys. I love her to death and want to be her friend if nothing else. But with this whole situation and doing coke, and m, and anything I can get my hands on, I'm afraid my life is going downhill. I have a great job, but no one I trust enough to say this to. If anyone I would actually talk to said girl, but that wouldn't really solve anything I don't think.

I can't tell my family about my drugs, but they would understand better the girl situation. I don't have any close friends that would understand the girl situation but they may be less judgmental about the drugs. It's just hard to not have someone for all of it, because it does link together. Should I see a therapist? It just seems like they won't understand any of it, I need advice not just someone to say these words to. Where do I turn?

(Don't mention religion please)

Thank you in advance if you actually read it and offer an opinion, I'll answer any of yours as thoughtfully as I can.

I've been going through a fairly dark downward spiral recently. I was introduced to drugs, which is slightly the problem but not nearly all of it. It mainly stems from a girl, imagine that. I told her that I didn't believe in love, based on my childhood and how f*cked up it was growing up. She didn't understand my side and well that was basically the end of us. Recently I have fallen hard for her, and told her how I felt, laid it all out on the line. She rejected me, now I'm pretending like I don't have feelings anymore and she is coming to me for advice about guys. I love her to death and want to be her friend if nothing else. But with this whole situation and doing coke, and m, and anything I can get my hands on, I'm afraid my life is going downhill. I have a great job, but no one I trust enough to say this to. If anyone I would actually talk to said girl, but that wouldn't really solve anything I don't think.

I can't tell my family about my drugs, but they would understand better the girl situation. I don't have any close friends that would understand the girl situation but they may be less judgmental about the drugs. It's just hard to not have someone for all of it, because it does link together. Should I see a therapist? It just seems like they won't understand any of it, I need advice not just someone to say these words to. Where do I turn?

(Don't mention religion please)

Thank you in advance if you actually read it and offer an opinion, I'll answer any of yours as thoughtfully as I can.

I've been going through a fairly dark downward spiral recently. I was introduced to drugs, which is slightly the problem but not nearly all of it. It mainly stems from a girl, imagine that. I told her that I didn't believe in love, based on my childhood and how f*cked up it was growing up. She didn't understand my side and well that was basically the end of us. Recently I have fallen hard for her, and told her how I felt, laid it all out on the line. She rejected me, now I'm pretending like I don't have feelings anymore and she is coming to me for advice about guys. I love her to death and want to be her friend if nothing else. But with this whole situation and doing coke, and m, and anything I can get my hands on, I'm afraid my life is going downhill. I have a great job, but no one I trust enough to say this to. If anyone I would actually talk to said girl, but that wouldn't really solve anything I don't think.

I can't tell my family about my drugs, but they would understand better the girl situation. I don't have any close friends that would understand the girl situation but they may be less judgmental about the drugs. It's just hard to not have someone for all of it, because it does link together. Should I see a therapist? It just seems like they won't understand any of it, I need advice not just someone to say these words to. Where do I turn?

(Don't mention religion please)

Well, I'm a pretty confident guy, can comfortably talk to anyone. I am a bartender so that helps me in that respect. I want to meet a girl to actually date, and enjoy being around. I can pick up girls at clubs and bars but that isn't the point, those relationships don't last longer than a month ever. Where is a good place to meet girls as friends first?

Well to be straight, I've been doing coke all night, I can't sleep for the life of me. But on top of that, the girl I love, the girl that I'm supposed to be taking care of, the girl that I went to a house party with, is out with some guy. She turned her phone off, I can't contact her, I'm worried this isn't usually like her. What do I do, just wait?

I've called like 15+ times and texted like 7 times. I know it's desperate or w/e but I can't help it.

So here is the background.

I dated a girl for about 4 months, by the end of it it was strictly friends with benefits because neither of us cared much. She left me because she had feelings for her ex again. That was fine, I was hanging out with lots of girls. Then we went on a weekend away together to a music festival. One of the nights we headed home early, grabbed some beer and drank and talked for hours. It came out that I didn't think there was such a thing as love, turns out that is basically what her life revolves around. She cried, I felt bad, we were friends from then on strictly as you can imagine. This was 2-3 months ago and I can't shake my feelings for her, all my other female friends have vanished cause I don't make time for them because of her. Today just casually talking she said we will never be together, kinda jokingly I said why not, and she was like cause of what happened at the festival. I care for her so much, I still am unsure about the love thing but I can't get her out of my mind and I'd love to be with her again. How can I do this at this point? How can I prove to her that I've changed?

So, my co-worker found a 10mg Dexedrine SB pill. She asked and turns out it was another one of my co-workers who takes them. He said it's an interesting stimulant. I got interested naturally and he gave me 2 of them. Now me and the girl are going to do them together.

Question 1: How much should I take, 210lb male 6'5. How much should she take, 120lb female 5'4. I was thinking I would take 20mg, and she would take 10mg, but maybe we should split a pill up?

Question 2: How quickly should I expect it to hit me?

Question 3: Is it fun? What should we do on it? Planning on just chillin playing video games but idk.

If you have any extra information that would be great thanks!

PS: I know it's illegal to do pharmaceuticals that you aren't prescribed, and all that but I'm going to do it regardless so if you can provide information great, don't tell me not to do it.

My friend offered me to do K with her tonight, I agreed. I've never railed anything, but I figure how hard can it be. Any tips to make it a lot of fun but still be able to drive to work and function in 6 hours?

Alright, I just got out of a 2ish month relationship with a girl I work with. It ended...well I suppose, no hard feelings, it was pretty much FWB anyway.

Now there's another girl I like a lot, I used to work with her and I took her to grad. Well end of May was her birthday and I went out clubbing, we made out that night and slept in the same bed. Just a few nights ago I hung out with her again, we actually slept together this time. I texted her and she said that was a bad idea, not that it wasn't fun but that she cared about me. How do I turn this into something a little bit more meaningful now?

Alright, I just got out of a 2ish month relationship with a girl I work with. It ended...well I suppose, no hard feelings, it was pretty much FWB anyway.

Now there's another girl I like a lot, I used to work with her and I took her to grad. Well end of May was her birthday and I went out clubbing, we made out that night and slept in the same bed. Just a few nights ago I hung out with her again, we actually slept together this time. I texted her and she said that was a bad idea, not that it wasn't fun but that she cared about me. How do I turn this into something a little bit more meaningful now?

So last Saturday, me and my friend went out clubbing. We had lined up to meet a whole bunch of people there. We showed up and said hi to everyone, hugged them all. One of our friends brought her girlfriend, lets say her name is Cindy. I introduced myself, gave her a hug, she asked me to dance. All night we were dancing, kissing, everything short of f*cking basically...It's a nightclub there's only so much you can do. At the end of the night me and Cindy were sitting outside on the sidewalk and talking, and she was saying things like she saw her high school teacher its been so long, and she is 3rd year uni student. I am straight out of high school, 18 years old, she's 22.

She asked how old I was, I told her 18 then she was like "Oh no...That's not good, ugh why did I do that?" And I was kinda like wtf...I don't personally care about the age difference, all the girls my age are immature. Do you think I stand any chance, even just friends? Or did we push the bounds too much?

PS: She's smokin hot, if that makes any difference

How young of a guy would you date? Assuming he has attributes you are looking for (Height, looks, personality) but he's just behind you in life sorta.

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By "Behind you" like...he's in high school, you've graduated, or you are in 3rd year university he's in first...

2 days ago

Including your age would be delightful too, thanks.

How young of a guy would you date? Assuming he has attributes you are looking for (Height, looks, personality) but he's just behind you in life sorta.

I've asked this like 4 times, but here goes again. Best answer so far was deadmau5/doctor/20's gangster

I'm turning 18 the Friday before halloween, so I probably won't dress up since I'm going to a club. But on the off chance that I do, it needs to be club appropriate (Eg. No large pieces, and no like tarzan sh*t). I'm a male, 6'5 190lbs. I just want ideas, creative, original, an eyecatcher. Witty is always good, but I don't want to explain it to everyone I meet :D

10 Points for best answer of course! And thanks for your contributions!

I'm turning 18 the Friday before halloween, so I probably won't dress up since I'm going to a club. But on the off chance that I do, it needs to be club appropriate (Eg. No large pieces, and no like tarzan sh*t). I'm a male, 6'5 190lbs. I just want ideas, creative, original, an eyecatcher. Witty is always good, but I don't want to explain it to everyone I meet :D

10 Points for best answer of course! And thanks for your contributions!

I'm turning 18 the Friday before halloween, so I probably won't dress up since I'm going to a club. But on the off chance that I do, it needs to be club appropriate (Eg. No large pieces, and no like tarzan sh*t). I'm a male, 6'5 190lbs. I just want ideas, creative, original, an eyecatcher. Witty is always good, but I don't want to explain it to everyone I meet :D

10 Points for best answer of course! And thanks for your contributions!

I'm turning 18 the Friday before halloween, so I probably won't dress up since I'm going to a club. But on the off chance that I do, it needs to be club appropriate (Eg. No large pieces, and no like tarzan sh*t). I'm a male, 6'5 190lbs. I just want ideas, creative, original, an eyecatcher. Witty is always good, but I don't want to explain it to everyone I meet :D

10 Points for best answer of course! And thanks for your contributions!

1994 Subaru WRX JDM

It has:

Blow off valve (Big)

3in Catback exhaust

Racing pedals

16" Speedline rims

Lowered on coilovers

I think that's it, quite tastefully modded. Since it is from Japan it has the deck taken out, it is right hand drive. It has a non-functional radar detector that I'll rip out.

I was thinking:

Deck

Turbo timer (Maybe)

Lights (Don't know where...under dash, in dash, in turbo gauge...?)

Intake, if it can use it, cold air

I don't want to do anything too crazy but looking for suggestions, would like to keep it tasteful.

I'm 17, hah I don't grow a good beard, I wouldn't grow the mustache with it because it's just dirty.

I work at a bakery, they wouldn't care unless it got really gross but my boss has a thiccckkkk goatee...

At the moment it looks about like Syd Crosby hah, you think I'd get too much fun made of me or should I just do it for sh*ts and giggles?

I just want to learn on my own for the beginning, maybe take a few classes later on. I have been learning basic coding for the time being with qb64 and fbIDE. Should I start with a different language? If so which one? I want to eventually get to c++ probably, maybe java, c# and c... I dunno but I need to know where to start :D Thanks