abby

book recommendations, podcasts, anything! 

i want to live my life. i want to experience life. i hate seeing my family get sucked into the governments sick game. this is not how life should be. everyone has gotten turned into soldiers and are expected to wake up, drive to work, make money, pay bills, go home, go to bed. like for what!!! no. no. unless you are super passionate about it thats awesome, but i feel as if it’s rare to find someone so passionate about what they do. no ones eyes light up when talking about their occupation. no one has the drive anymore. the motivation. everything is mundane. everything is blah. nothing is exciting. well you know what, i’m gonna make my life exciting. i’m going to follow my heart. i’m not going to get sucked into the ordinary way of living. i’ll travel. i’ll meet great people. i’ll find a job i am wholeheartedly passionate about. we are here one time and one time only. why waste it on a occupation that is probably pointless! life is meant to be peaceful. it’s meant to be full of love. it’s meant to be on your terms. does anyone agree or do i sound crazy? i’m 17 so i don’t know much but i really can’t deal with seeing how everyone falls into this sick way of living. 

such an interesting topic to me. did it feel like love at first site?  how did you know they were your s/o?

i want to know all about it. 

lately my friend has been acting very distant from me and today we got into a little bit of a fight and she told me that she feels left out. We have had the same friend group of 3 people for 4 years now. me and the other friend in our group have cheerleading together, lots of classes together, and we live really close so we see eachother a lot. Now my friend that is feeling left out doesn’t have any classes with me, and lives a little farther away so we only hangout on the weekends. so i can understand why she is feeling left out, but the way she said it to me was in a super rude way and for almost a month now i have felt her feel almost jealous of me and my other friends friendship. she doesn’t treat us the same she is cold and distant. i have been so busy with sports and school but i am never mean to her. i am the most loyal to my friends and i treat them with so much respect. for the 4 years that we have been friends, i have only gotten into at least like 2 fights with her and we made up very quickly after. i don’t know why she all the sudden makes me seem like the bad person when she doesn’t even put effort into our friendship. i get that she feels left out and i told her that i am sorry and that i won’t let her feel like that but there is only so much that i can say or do. i love her but she is just being mean all of the sudden and i’m not sure what to do? we are in highschool (10th grade) 

last night i had the guy i’ve been talking to over. he’s a freshman boy and i’m a sophomore girl. no one was home and about 10 minutes after his mom dropped him off, she literally walked into my house and knocked on my -bedroom- door, (let me remind you i’ve never met her before and she just walks into my house) and said that he wasn’t allowed here because no parents are home. she said he wasn’t answering his phone but he was literally here for 10 minutes? i find it super disrespectful for her to have done that and i get that it’s not his fault and that he’s probably just as embarrassed but like it makes me not wanna hang out again 

when my ex and I were dating he was obsessed with me, no one could get in between us, a simple fight would have him in tears, we would hangout every single day. he used to be very against drinking, parties, smoking, and if I did it it would turn into a fight. this was one big factor in the relationship that made me very upset to be controlled and I wasn’t having it. I broke up w him then gave him another chance, then a week later he brakes up with me. Shockingly starts dating our old good friend a day after, now is drinking with her, going to parties, vacation to Vermont and New Hampshire with his family, their relationship seems like a fairytale. He used to talk about getting married, having kids, loved me so much and I knew he did the way he put me before everything. we dated for a year. I’m lost, I know he wasn’t cheating on me because we were inseparable every day, but the “friend” of ours was obsessed with him, and I was always worried about her being around him. but all together, why hasn’t he just taken time to himself, he started dating her a day after we broke up. we haven’t seen eachother since we broke up (2 months ago)

we broke up a month ago, he started dating someone 2 days after. Recently, he’s texted me saying how sorry he was twice within the week, called me twice which I didn’t answer, followed my Instagram and added me back on Snapchat. Is he just trying to clear the air or does he miss me?

I know guys are more sexual than girls, but my boyfriend wants sex every single day. We’ve been dating for 8 months and almost have it every day. I sometimes tell him I don’t want to right now maybe later and he throws a fit and will get mad at me. I am 2 years younger than him in highschool and I thought about if he was using me but he seems to really care about me and loves me. He always says “you don’t like me anymore” and will ignore me for over a half hour because I simply don’t want to have it.

I have been wanting to rant about this for so long now, so I am a freshman in highschool. My boyfriend is a junior. Before anyone gives me anything for that, when I met him everything felt right he had such a sweet heart and was anything I could have asked for. About 2 months go by and he stops drinking and smoking. I know that I shouldn’t be doing this but sometimes I did when going on vacations, hanging with friends, etc. but he tells me I need to stop or else he is going to end everything with me. He also starts trying to take me away from my 2 best friends and thinks they are bad influences. Whenever we get into fights he threatens to break up with me and the fights over somethng so tiny end up being the end of the world to him. When I am upset, I have to end up saying sorry. I am ALWAYS wrong. We fight a lot, I really like him but I am so confused on what to do. It would break mine and his heart if I were to ever do such a thing but it is emotionally exhausting for me. I want to be like how I used to be, having fun with my friends and all. The worst part of it is, when we aren’t fighting we are so good together. But the catch is that we fight a lot. And I don’t know if he will change. (He also had asked me to prom already which is a few months away)) and he always talks about the future and having kids together.

He broke up with me out of no where. Literally no where and he said he didn’t want a gf right now. So then I was like when did you stop liking me and he’s like a few days ago was when I realized I didn’t. Obviously I still have feelings for him but when will I stop and will he ever have them for me?

We were doing perfectly fine, going onto 6 months. He texts me, and says he doesn’t want a gf anymore. I really liked him. A lot. And we hung out every weekend, but not alone so I guess it was a normal middle school relationship. But man it fu*king hurts so bad. I can’t stop crying and idk how to get over it. I’m really sad but how long will it take to get over it?

I’m only 14 and I honestly haven’t seen the real mom since I was like 7 years old (when she wasn’t taking drugs) and I just found out this year she was taking them and my older sister found out so my mom went to rehab. It’s been 3 months since rehab and she’s so mean now. Her ex bf who I hated so much used to call me and my sister the worst things EVER. When he found out my mom went to rehab, he took my sisters 1000 dollar camera and ray bans and my moms jewelry. My sister was devastated but all my mom said was “those are material things your lucky I went to rehab” so anyways, he was so mean to me and my sisters like literally so close to punching us and now my mom is texting him saying stuff like “I’m so sorry I never wanted this to happen I miss you” and more bs. Like that is LITERALLY such a fu**ing slap in the face to me and my sisters because she’s not saying like oh fuc* you for being rude to my kids she’s still kissing his a** and I’m donee omg. My sister even has a restraining order on him. I can’t why is she sneaking behind our backs texting him!

Like she doesn’t even care bout our feelings she just thinks going away helps

Does this make him erect? I would be rubbing just next to his d*ck. Does he get a good feeling ***** or a ***** that he wants to go away..?? When we were holding hands he would sometimes put my hand on his dick so I think he liked it but do guys like it?