Death of our cat?
Jamilla Sinjab(Beautiful Squirrel) died yesterday after being hit by a car.
She was saved in 2006 being found wandering the streets of Dhahran Saudi Arabia. PAWS, People's Animal Welfare Society found her, neutered her and allowed us to adopt her. She settled in well with our other cat Sufi and dog Barak and enjoyed coming to America with us.
She had the most unique personality of any cat I have ever known. She was very adventurous and playful and loved people. My wife called me last week while I was out of town and said Jamilla had gotten out of the house during a party she was hosting.
I know had I come home immediately and started looking for her I would have found her. I came home after 2 days and gave a half-hearted attempt to find her by walking through the woods and calling her. My wife found her hit by a car over 2 miles from home. We buried her at our home 05/03/08 with great guilt and saddness. Jamilla please forgive my neglect. How can I forgive myself?
Thanks for you judgemental empathy Lavish G. I am trying to find comfort and forgiveness and you heap scorn and contempt. For your information we spend more on vet bills and food for our animals than we do ourselves, we always get abandoned pets from shelters, we limit our pet ownership to what we can afford so they will have good lives and except for Jamilla our pets live to be 18 and 19 years old and when they have lived full lives and start suffering we have them humanely put to sleep by a vetrinarian.
Do you think my wife and I are not cursing ourselves enough ?
http://jamilla-sinjab.last-memories.com/
Thank you all for the support you have shown. My wife still cannot even read your responces without starting to cry
and grieve. This will take time. Personally I feel I deserve my pain but it is comforting to read what you have written. I was especially moved by the link Michele-Cat-Cyprus sent in and learn that what we feel is typical when a pet dies. Here is another I fould at the site which will be helpful to grieving pet owners and I post it so you kind people can pass it around to others in this forum who may need it. Thank you all and may whatever God you pray to bestow you with blessing and mercy.
http://www.pet-loss.net/emotions.html
I want to thank all of you who posted the supportive and helpful advice. It is going to take my wife and I a long time to work through the sorrow and guilt but I know in time the laceration in our hearts will heal and we will be able to remember all the good about our life with Jamilla Sinjab.
The one good thing that has come of this is my wife has decided to write a children's book about Jamilla and her heritage as a african wildcat (Felis Lybica) and how they are the ancestoral progenitors of all domestic cats today.
Thank you all again for your caring. I will not vote whose answer was the best because all the sensible answers deserve to be best.