Nostalgia seems to pop up everywhere. I'm always nostalgic and wanting things to go back, rather than just wanting to move on. I can't help it either. I also want to go insane. WANT TOO....and I WANT to be anorexic, and I had someone practically call me an attention whore for wanting that but it's true. And it wouldn't have been for attention. So I need help with that if you would. But seriosly, I have heard so many times, "Oh it's just a phase hun, youll get through it." Ok I would believe that if this 'phase' wouldn't have lasted 5 years. ever since I was 8 I wanted to die. I don't know what to do....I have actually had someone walk up to me, hand me a knife and tell me to cut myself. How loved would YOU feel if that happened :/
Anonymous2012-05-21T00:46:09Z
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First of all, I want to praise you for reaching out and asking for some direction! You first mentioned that you wanted to go back...back to what? The time when you were most happy? A time when you felt loved and accepted? What has happened since that time..since you were 8 years old?
I want to reassure you that although you are feeling so many things inside and cannot help but question, what the next step in life is...you are not alone. Yes, it is true that there are people who look down on others and treat people poorly as you mentioned a person walking up to you and handing you a knife. Oh my gosh! Nevertheless there are other people out there who are willing to help you find some direction, some happiness...some peace.
Although, you may not feel this, you are very special person and the Lord our God has a plan for you. If you can believe this, then I am confident that He will help you get through this time in your life and replenish your spirit once again. I will pray for you sweetheart and if you want to email just to talk, please do so.
Well a phase can last up to ten years or more if you wanted it to. It really depends on how motivated you are for change. I mean my problem isn't as bad as yours, but I can relate in a different way.
First things first though, you really have to let go of the past. You can't move on into the future if you're always thinking about the past. It's hard yes, but you're going to have to let go... Try distracting yourself you know... Play games, go out, "socialize", lol.
No matter where you go, or what you do, someone is bound to call you an "attention whore". I mean, it's society... They always have to find ways to put someone down. Why exactly do you want to be anorexic?
When you really think about it, have you really tried to make a change in your life? Like really think about it. Did you try to be happy or did you just give up after another cycle of sadness came over you? Don't think negative. Most of the times it could be a state of mind. I know that you must be over-thinking a lot too. Try not too. You're probably thinking that "That's really hard..." and it is, but you really have to try. You can't just sit there and wait for the phase to be over. You have to do something to change it. Try different things. Focus on other things. Who cares about what those other people say, they can't be your friend if they are putting you down.
..But if you are constantly thinking that that your life sucks and things are really hard. Then it's just going to stay that way. Let's face it, not everyone is going to try and make you happy. Some people get really irritated and annoyed. You have to think differently and so on. Plan goals, etc... You know?
It can also be your eating habits and physical endurance. Eating wrong things can have an affect on your moods. If you exercise more and eat really healthy you just start feeling happier. 'Cause exercising releases "happy" hormones. :) AND REMEMBER TO SMILE. EVEN JUST SMILING CAN MAKE YOU FEEL HAPPIER.
I'm a little crazy. Let me take you on a tour of my mind.
2010: -I wanted to be anorexic -I wanted to cut -I wanted to be mentally unfit -I wanted to be noticed 2011: -I pretended to be anorexic -I skipped a few meals every once in a while -I started to participate in gym class -I started to hide some of my meals -I started pretending to cut -I took the razor out of pencil sharpeners and "accidentally" dropped them when people could see -I started forcing myself to talk to myself -I started making up replies -I started pretending to see things that were not there 2012: -No matter how hungry I am I don't eat -My every limb aches from excessive exercising -15/24 hours of my day are spent on dieting, 9 are spent sleeping -I cry a tear for every calorie I eat -I can tell you the amount of calories in ANYTHING -I cut my wrists, hips and legs leaving un fading scars -I'm reminded daily by this voice that I'll never succeed -I cry myself to sleep each night for any given reason -I feel like an empty egg, I wrong move and I'll be cracked forever
Please. Don't.
It's starts of wanting, then pretending, then needing, then bleeding, then forever. I'm begging you. I can tell you the first article I read that made me want to be like this but I can't tell you a single thing that's pulling me away. You'll regret it and you may want to "deal with it later" but there is not later. Just forever.
Cause you're young enough to be my daughter...all I can accountably say ...is that you obviously urgently need the professional help of a psychiatrist skilled/experienced in treating people of your age...as far as I know- there are prescription drugs-which alone or along with psychotherapy -are effective in making you feel better...in my humble opinion- very few things are so opposed -bluntly opposed to nature's laws-as the idea of suicide and of dying in general when it comes to children of your age...now-as far as I know and am able to understand-there may be all about some chemical imbalance within your brain that makes you feel this way...it's not your fault-it's not under your control- but it 's probably treatable-as I said...besides this-please- keep in mind you're at the age of utmost growing and flourishing in every way.NOT of even thinking to self-harm... therefore-I hereby urge you and beseech you as well- talk at once to your family and tell exactly how you feel-and ask for professional help...whatever it takes-and even if it's about getting to the Emergency Room-if you feel that bad...or talk to a school councelor or so-with no delay...and please-refrain from any form of trying to harm yourself-whatsoever...I suppose ''phone medicine'' can never be good enough and- very likely- there are topics to be dealt with in real life...keep in mind you're just as entitled as everyone of us to a normal life... May God bless you-and protect you from all harm...including self-harm...you'll stay in my prayers... May