does anyone ever wonder what if anything?

I think every thing happens for a reason. God puts people and things in our life to see how well we will react to any given problem. This is something called trials and tribulations. How you come out during these test is something, I call having faith and trust God to direct my path for the answer I am seeking.

Yes, I have always wanted to know why about everything. From places of wonder to ancient items; from joy and love to sorrow and heartache, I've wanted to know why.

Life, this journey we all are on, is full of lessons and learning, and I believe that is the way it was intended to be in the beginning.

And through it all, God has been with me.

Never quit asking why. Always search for the answer.

God Bless.

Everything happens for a reason and their is no coinsidence. Hind sight gives us a better perspective. But if we can learn to beleive this there is much to gain from it. I have been blessed with a special gift. I am able to "read hearts", that is the term my grandmother gives it. I am able to feel others feelings and emotions and am blessed with the gift to help. Weather it just be an ear to listen or words to comfort to sound advice.. I am also able to see into certain lifes, comunicate with those who have passed and have knowldge of life in general... It is tough to explain somtimes.. I am no pro or no phoney, I do not set up shop or charge people any money. I just let things happen. People usually come to me on their own.. My most recent story involveed an elderly gentleman. He was infront of me at the grocery store and seemed a bit confused whan asked for his rewards card. His wife had just passed and this was his first EVER trip to the grocery store.. Could you imagine??? Now I am not very comfortable with my gift and somtimes doubt it myself.. This man starts to break down in front of me.. I let him use my rewards card and took him to the counter to get his own.. During this time I was his ear. I heard all about his life and wife.. It was so beautiful.. I saw his wife and the life they shared. But what am I supposed to do.. Tell him all this..??? NO. I just listened..Right me a 38 year old going to tell this 80 yearold man that all will be fine.. But the answers cam to me.. I told him to cherish the memories.. He told me of how bad it was at night.. I told him as he lay there to talk to his wife and imagine her voice and what she would be saying back.. This will work for anyone who has lost a spouse.. They are there with you and will comunicate with you.. What you imagine is always their answer.. Now, I didn't tell him that last part, just the part about talking and imagining.. He talked some more and I listened.. Feeling his loss was almost too much.. I sure appreciate my wife a bunch more.. He told me I was a God send and thanked me.. Now the funny part is that the same exact thing has happened to me 4 more times this summer.. Of course not at the supermarket, but it still happened.. One fellow ran the local bait store that I have been going to for years... We never talked much of anything except about fishing.. Now I am sure dozens of people come and go out his stor al day but he choose me to confide in.. We talked for hours.. I didn't fish that night, but I made a new friend...I still don't always love my gift nor do I always understand it... But it was given to me for a reason so I am trying.. Keep in mind, that we are all here for a reason, that we all cross paths for a reason.. If we all knew our reasons and jobs I beleive the world would finally know peace, and the hungry would be fed.. But self indulgence and greed are too busy trying to ruin it all.. I was shown a vision of a young woman once.. She was tanning poolside, very beautiful, her hair and nails were perfect.. She lived in a mansion and wanted for nothing, lying there soaking up the sun as she was waited on hand and foot... In the next vision I saw a multitude of starving children.. She had missed her calling..

I used to ponder no matter if there replaced into something supernatural truly. yet no longer anymore. i have continuously been keen on books. And my popular reading is philosophy. I went into the existence and works of St. Francis of Assisi, St. Augustine, and St. Thomas Aquinas. i got here across and fell in love with the metaphysics of St. Thomas Aquinas. and that i have continuously been surrounded by the supernatural eversince. except even as i'm asleep.

I know...sometimes it doesn't make any sense, does it? Then in hindsight...with enough time and distance...you find out it does make sense after all...no matter what it is. I guess it is like trying to make sense out of the senseless...or trying to put sense into it. Sometimes, something that makes perfect sense at the time...turns out to be senseless after all...so there is a twist to the whole thing. I can't use examples; or we would be here all day. (And that makes sense...doesn't it?)

Fate. Destiny. Karma.

I don't have enough time to play those games - I'm too busy working the reality I live in.

I view my wholelife as a Test, but you can't live your life questioning your actions, you will drive your self crazy!!!!

my life is full of "what if's" but i try to think of only what is

i havent'!