What could this mean ?

You feel this way because you're a loving daughter and you're internalizing what you believe to be your mother's pain and loneliness. That's a mother-daughter bond and obviously means that you and your mom are very close.

Before you internalize too much, talk to your mom about the feelings you've been having and ASK her how she feels and encourage her to be totally honest with you. You'll probably be surprise by her answer. See, women are a lot more resilient that you think. As a young woman, you're already learning how much we care and how much we take on to and into ourselves on behalf of those we love.

Your mom will assure you that she's fine...and she very well could be. If you're still worried after talking to her about hit, encourage her daily and give her compliments about what a great mom she is and about how beautiful you think she is and how much you appreciate her.

Either way, stop agonizing-- it's bad for your health and I'm sure it's not what your mom wants for you. Once you start to say the positive to her and to yourself, both of you will start too see and feel positively. It sounds cliche, but "think happy thoughts" is a good saying because if you try it and apply it consistently, it works.

My prayers go out to you and your family. Continue to be a wonderful, caring, compassionate daughter-- I know your mom notices and appreciates you for it.

...hope this helps some.

-Faith

You sound like you're having separation anxiety. Small children experience I know for a fact because their little minds don't recognize that a parent will come back for them when they leave -it's a phase for them. For you, I would say that this divorce has also frazzled you a little and is causing your brain to send some mixed signals. You're used to your parents both being at home, now dad is gone and not coming back. Now It is enough to cause separation anxiety with your mom and give you worry that maybe if your dad could leave your mom, who he loved maybe the same could happen with you and your mom, even though in reality you know that's false. If possible, you might want to seek some counseling and just relay your emotions about everything. Tell your mom and get some reassurance. And don't worry, she knows you love her and she loves you, whether you say it everyday or not. You can be supportive for your mom but don't forget to take care of yourself, you need support during this difficult time too. Your brothers are experiencing the same thing but guys just react differently to depression and drinking and such is one side effect. Good luck sweetie.

It's ok to worry about that. When my father had cancer, I didn't want to go to school. I wanted to stay home and watch. I felt like if I left him for one second, he would die on me. I was only 13 and was a wreck. The day I did go back to school (April 29th) he passed away. I felt it was my fault he died. I'm now 17 and still feel guilty even though deep down inside, I know there was nothing I could do. By me staying with him, he was hanging on. People have regrets sometimes when their love ones die and they didn't say or do something, but don't let it beat you down like it did me. Things happen for a reason and some of those things are beyond our reach. Your a very caring person and your mother should be proud of you

You are probably feeling this way due to the divorce. That is what divorce is.....dealth. Dealth of the family that you have known your whole life and it is forever changed. Your whole family have a tough road a head of you dealing w/this change. Try to find someone you can talk to about the divorce and the "new" family you have. You can also try talking to your brothers as well.

Encourage your mom to seek counseling so she can start to pick up the pieces and move forward.

I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.

Best of luck.

It sounds to me like your family is going through some major changes and you are not sure how to deal with it. You probably feel a little lost so assume your mom feels even more lost. You see her as the one constant in your life right now, and that comforts you, but you worry about her being gone too. It is normal, so relax. If nothing else, she will know you care and you have proved to yourself how important your mom is to you. Life will get back to normal soon.