______________ Keeps me ALIVE!?

The doctors gave up trying to figure this out years ago. My wife just shakes her head and walks away if anybody asks her this about me. My kids will tell you that it's my coffee cup, which I never wash! My Mother will tell you that it is Bittersweet Dark Chocolate, 90% pure (She's supposed to have kicked off from Diabetes and a heart condition and she is still with us, is living at our place and shares my chocolate. Coincidence? I think not!) I would say that it is my complete bemusement over what is going to happen from day to day, the next song I write, or maybe the fact that I get lost too easily to ever find my way out of this body. One of my grandchildren will tell you that I am too mean to die (he he) and another one will tell you that I am too silly to die (that too) I certainly have plenty of company waiting for me when I find my way home, so it isn't that I'm afraid I'll be lonely. Of course, they've been looking down on me all this time and know all my bad habits. (gulp)

My aim in life keeps me alive! I've set a deadline for myself to achieve my goal and open people's eyes all around the world! This is what keeps me moving forward as right now I'm building up my knowledge. I'm not wise yet, but wisdom shall be my next step; then I'll go out there and I'll knock on every single closed window and open them up. And I'll do whatever it takes! Till then I'll have to remain alive but after that I'll be alright! :-)

Thank you

Breathing, seeing, time with those I love, and relating to others makes me feel alive. Curiosity, and time with those I love keeps me wanting to live.

My will to live and what keeps me feel alive, is my Husband, and Family, and part of it is waiting, for Justice to be done for the Death of my oldest Grandson.

God keeps me Alive!

Faith makes me feel Alive!

My Son keeps me wanting to Live!

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Ive been trying to figure that one out for a looong while now. I thought it was the hope of getting back with my one and ONLY soul mate but apparently thats not going to go as I had planned:( I think it could be my career but I havent been finding too many jobs as of yet on the makeup artist scene. I look to spirituality for the longest time now of who Im supposed to be with to be at my ultimate happiest, I guess it lies. Ultimately I wanted in life that one person that made you feel on a permanent high. I guess its not in the cards for me no matter how much I wished, dreamed, and hoped on it. Sooo...........now I gotta settle for my career and hope that takes off?? Which I found out from the psychic that Ive got to work a mundane job for 3 months until I get a new job for making income. Dude..........Im lost right now thats the same damn question Im trying to figure out here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can only pray to God so many times, right??? Not like I dont appreciate my friends and family to the utmost but Im literally 2600 miles from them all...........................I honestly dont know if Im ever going to be happy.

I couldn't possibly choose one thing, or one person. The joys of living. Trite as it may "sound"--there's so much I could spend the rest of my life (!) defining them. Dozens a day. I would like to live forever. I can't even imagine depending on one person, or thing to "make" me want to live. The beautiful, graceful birches beyond my deck had to be cut down & that was sad. I've "lost" people I loved. Yet, life is so very rich--

Breathing

The knowledge that God created all, and that He saw that all was good. And therefore, no matter what the world may present before my eyes, I know the evil that doeth appear to be real, will come to the surface of God's goodness to be destroyed and all is an illusion that will be revealed to us with the light of understanding.

What keeps me alive is my 2 year old son.... also his father keeps me going... knowning that im the only mother/father figure in my sons life and knowing his father is looking down and watching him.