Needhelp writing and telling the story of my seizures!

You're probably trying to critique what you are writing WHILE you are writing. That's a big mistake, because it stifles your creative flow. When you first sit down to write, don't judge what you are putting on paper (or keyboard), just let the words come out. Don't even edit your spelling, just write. That'll help you capture the important thoughts and ideas. Afterwards, you can go back and put it into a storyline and edit it.

It is hard to do because writing about it drums up all your emotions and you re-live it. That is very painful. I have a 30 year history of epilepsy and it has taken me on a journey that I wanted to share with others. My story is unique and I wanted to write about my life from the time they started to today and I investigated writing a book about my "adventures." I got books from the library on writing a book and all, even how to publish before I started it. When I tried to do this it was too painful for me so I couldn't do it. I spent a day or two outlining and all but had to stop. I am able to write about all this and everyday stuff in a personal writing journal I write in but this is a small amount and various topics. I cannot write so heavily and deeply about the epilepsy - I think I'd rather not stir up the pain and emotions. By the way, I had surgery 12 years ago and haven't had seizures since but still take medication at 1/3 of the dose I was on before the surgery.

As you have illustrated by the phraseology of your question, you are, indeed, very good at written espression. In this instance you are attempting to write about something that is obviously highly comlex to you. My approach would be to make notes and assemble them in outline form beginning with what you think triggers your seizures and then the chronological order of events that follows.

I love writing too, but sometimes I think its harder to write about yourself, rather then someone else. I think what you have is great. Talk about how its unexplainable, how it is a roadblock it self. You could also write about how it feels, if you can feel it at all. And what you see, hear, the taste left in your mouth. How does your family react? Make a list of questions before you write, then you will never have a 'roadblock'. When your writing you can reffer to them.

I really hope this helped!!!

Writing is so much fun, and I wish you much success in it.

~PishPosh

Its becuase its personal. Try changing your point of view; write about it an abstract form.