I think I'm either crazy or experiencing some sort of life crisis-help!?

You can do anything you want.

You don't even need a church to have a personal relationship with God.

However, if you are seeking fellowship, I would find a non-denominational church geared towards a younger generation (20s and 30s for example.)

Tattoos and piercings don't mean squat, so don't worry about it.

No, you're not crazy....

Your life is being touched...don't blow it off as nothing.

No, possibly, and yes. In that order for the last three questions.

Everyone experiences changes in thought and perception during their lifetime, I'd suggest quiet contemplation in order to try to figure things out but that doesn't always work for everyone. I know a lot of people who have a relationship with God without all of the religious mess interfering. You could try to go back to church maybe going back would shed some light on your situation especially if you already have a church in mind that you know you'll be comfortable in. If christianity is the answer for you just keep in mind that there are many followers of that faith and not all have such an orthodox view on how things should be.

First, you're not crazy, you're a child of the Most High, and it sounds like He's pursuing you to return to Him.

If you still have your Bible, turn to Luke 15 and read about the Prodigal Son...I'm sure you'll find some similarities in there.

I was answering this question, but lost the page when I was trying to get the right link for you...I think you (and possibly your husband, also) would do well watching the testimony of Brian "Head" Welch (former guitarist of KORN). He came to know the Lord in 2005, and has since written 2 books and appeared on TV programs all over, telling his testimony. One link I found was here:

http://www.dailymotion.com/relevance/search/Brian%...

So try it out. Go for a walk, listen inside of yourself and to the world, see if you feel something is there, and what that something is driving you towards.

From there, if you continue to feel motivated, if you felt moved to, consider possibly spending time trying to pray, or at least meditate with the consideration that there may be a God listening.

If these work for you, and you feel comfortable, find some kind of sacred space, and see how you respond to it. It doesn't have to be a church, you could go to a shrine, even one of the ones that some cities put in for nondenominational worship in parks and places like that.

Listen to your own needs and instincts, and try to follow them along. Give it time, and don't look for the experience in the big things, rather ,look for it in the subtle, the gentle ways which you may be asked to listen and interact.

Well it sounds like you were so avidly against what you were brought up in that you swung the wheel hard the other way, and now you're feeling that one extreme isn't necessarily the answer to the other extreme.

Just not working for you.

So, ok, you tried two different ways, and it sounds like your beliefs are really in between. Your husband might not "get it" right away, but maybe he can accept the importance of you seeking the truth, and, at least, the sense of community of a church.

I suggest you try more moderate churches, and be frank and unapologetic about your beliefs and searching with your husband.

i'm not religious... i call myself an agnatheist. but i went to a catholic school, and both sets of my grandparents were religious. atheists often see the 'bad side' of religion, and talk about churches' stance on gay marriage and abortion... things like that... but i've seen how religion has really helped some people find their way and given them hope and inspired them.

if you think there is a void in your life, and you think religion will fill it, then go for it. if your worried about 'limitations', then my personal opinion is that you should free yourself from them. again, i'm probably not the best person to talk to, but if you want to worship God in your own way, then do it. i think people should just be able to believe what they want to, if it isn't hurting anyone and it helps them, why not?

so, if you like, then yes, return to the church. in my experience, the faithful are pretty forgiving... they believe they are not the ones to judge you.

good luck=D

Of course you can return to church! And a good one will welcome you no matter what youve done in the past! Thats the thing... you want to find one you feel comfortable in and at the same time you kids like as well! Dont give up on God because CLEARLY he has not given up on you! I pray that you and your family, including your husband, change your ways and follow the right path- to salvation and an eternity in heaven with God!

God Bless

PS! My husband was an Athiest when I met him but over time by my change and the good things happening around us, he's changed and is still changing! You just cant give up!

Raising children is one of the most life-changing and eye opening things which can happen to a woman. Follow your heart. If you stay true to yourself, you will find a path that best suits you. Your husband may just be worried about you trying to influence him or the children. Do this for yourself, and they will see, that even though the path may not be right for them, it makes you feel happy and at peace with yourself. Religion, belief and spirituality are deeply personal, individual things.

Good luck.

well mom...

you became a mom, and want the Buddhist style [middle path]. your family was off the wall one way, and then you went the totally opposite other way , so you are trying to find the [middle ground]

you can do what ever you want to do. god for me is [life force] life force is like air it is all around you and in you, so were is god not.the goddess is every thing, and doesn't relay have a personality on this level, so you cant piss of air, you can piss of the goddess.

meditate and go inside and find out who you are, and then try to find things out there that match who you are.

a good exercise is ask [ who am i ] then eliminate all the things you think you are, and accept what is left.

your husband is un shure of your mid life chrisis because he met the radical you. just reassure him that you are not going any were and step on to the path of [self discovery].. hope this helps?

Yes you can always return to a loving Father. God loves you so much He sent His Son to die for our sins. If you accept Jesus as God's Son and ask Him into your life and heart you will experience life at it's best. Please note I did not say it would get easier! Yes you can also return to church and any one that preaches from the Bible will do. It does not matter how far we stray from Him He is always there.