Since I have completely ruined my life this year...?

I feel sad. There are tears in my eyes.

It is not funny when a Human Being is suffering so much.

What you describe is a Torment. It is a kind of Agony.

Agony goes along with the idea of DEATH.

There are many kinds of DEATH. It is something that does not exclusively belong to the Physical.

We are more than our Physical Body.

We are Souls.

You said : "I've looked again into a dark hole". This reminds me of the DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL.

It is a Mystical phenomenon. It is a PASSAGE. Like going through a special GATEWAY.

Similar to a BLACK HOLE.

We are led into a dark place where one feels totally lost, silenced, abandoned, heartbroken, deeply afflicted, and even cursed.

All things familiar and sound are taken away from us.

The reason for this is that : what has been so far has to go.

It is the NIGHT before DAWN.

It is the let go of the obsolete, toward a brighter LIGHT.

Deep down, your SOUL knows this. This explains how you still remain somewhat hopeful, positive and optimistic. Just enough to keep you going.

You are NOT being "punished". And you won't DIE.

This is something that happens commonly, to all of us who are seriously Spiritual.

It is a GOOD thing.

It is a growing process. A transformative instance. In one's life, it corresponds to the Season of WINTER.

What follows WINTER ?

There you go.

SPRING will come.

You will marvel at your inner changes by then.

The Universe sees that you are strong enough to go through this.

WAIT. There is nothing more that you can do. Believe. No matter what.

Next, do come back to us, on the day where you will see the new DAWN. The new SPRING.

Because it WILL happen.

Take care.

First of all I wold like to congratulate you. I know that sounds absolutely absurd right now but this feeling of hopes come from your strength as a human being and as a person. You know as a rational person that things will get better and there is always hope. Many people take their own lives in a forgetful moment of this fact. Never give up and always hold on to that part of you that wants to hold on. There are always people who love you and ways to get around something that happened to you. I believe that you will never be handed anything more than you can deal. If you just went through the greatest loss that you have ever heard of happen to anyone then feel thankful that the universe or higher power thinks you are strong enough to handle it.

Everyone has their ups and their downs, and some of us even bottom out. Keep your head high and try not to reminisce. This is your life today, not yesterday. Today is the gift you have been given, and you are a gift to the world. You are here for a reason. Keep believing, stay strong. I know how you feel I have lost everything too before. And now, looking back, I never would have been grateful for the things that I have today if I hadn't lost everything that I held dear to me. And you are right, material objects are just that. You can't take them with and you have to leave them here. You may not own anything but you possess so much to offer the world.

Keep strong and keep smiling!

Calm down. You aren't even in high school yet. First off, you know you're not supposed to go off campus. You know the rules, and you chose to ignore them. Now you are facing the consequences. Accept that this is entirely your fault, and don't do it again. Ask yourself why you broke the rules. My suggestion is to throw yourself on the mercy of the principal. Admit your guilt. Hope for the best. Since you've shown a pattern of disrespect, he's unlikely to be merciful. Tell the whole truth - people hate being lied to. Telling a lie is saying that you're a coward, because you are afraid of what someone will do with the truth. It's one of the things that really pushes my buttons. In a month, you'll finish this year, and then go on to high school and do well. If you're in the US, and want to go to a good college, you need to have more A's than B's Shoot for a 3.5 average.

This come from your own , there're someone who can live happily without a leg , without arms , without eyes or...just disabled . You have all this complete but you're worrying for nothing .

And you should know , loss , sorrow , despair and all that is inevitable . Lifes go round when all the bad have come , the good will always come . Please don't panic or what , just calm down and look more detail...how everyone life , why do they laugh , how do they overcome the problems . People always go through what we are going through , sometimes they choose to enjoy , to overcome upon suffering . Remember , its your choice to make up your life . No one can ever force you to become happy if you don't want to , no one can force you to suffer if you didnt choose so . Hope you got a very fantastic life , after all . Good luck to you !!

Blessings and Light to you...... Some time in life we get misty-blue because our soul breaks down, and one get so sad to much pain and grief is to much for a human being, but as you hang on to the other end of the rope you will make it because of your faith and hope, you are a survivor and a child of God , as a human being we all had our share of loss, but we are still here for a reason, keep hanging on , this will make you stronger and take you to a higher level, some times the Lord test our faith in Him and what ever happens He is still closer to you than your own heart beat, life is some times very, disappointing and you feel that you will not make it because one soul see the other side so dark that you want to give up then at this very darkness of the soul, one grow, mature, let go surrender and get enlighten and awaken once you passes this stage your spirit will be lifted up and then you will find peace inside and out side, May the Spirit of God keep you and guide you and teach you, while you are going through these trials, and tribulations, God will make you stand, this to will pass. God bless!

From loss comes lessons. The greater the loss, the bigger the lesson. You're already quite wise. That's where the hope comes from. You've seen enough of life to know that this will pass too.

Your spirit is stronger than your desire right now. Your desire is to give up, but your soul knows better.

Not a fun place to be, but this suffering will make your future joys that much sweeter. Truth be told, when I've been at the bottom of my emotional strength, this type of advice has often made me consider punching the giver of the advice. Later, when the hurt recedes, I am thankful for wise friends.

Tell me About It! For me it was when Bush took over the White House. IT was as if a dark GLOOM covered the entire country. As he and his friends began to drink the life blood of the entire country, the almighty dollar, I went through hell and back losing one job but finding another and then a few years ago I lost my last job and haven't been able to find one since. I have a company that installs real estate sign posts and I got one job last week, which was the only one for the month, and two years ago I was installing about 5 posts / day. I feel that the country is destroyed and may never recover but then we have been in these situations before and we always managed to crawl out of them.

My "inner grape vine" tells me that this is for our own goods. We are learning to be humble and to live within our means. I'm trying to get along on $300 / month and it looks like that will soon be a "luxury" as I have to cut back even more.

I've sold everything I can and trimmed and trimmed. I have ONE hope and that is a job that a friend promised but that depends on him getting funding for the project and it is taking a bit longer than normal. Everywhere I go I'm blocked. It's almost impossible to make any headway. But remember the old saying "Suppression breeds violence" but take the aggressiveness out of it and say that soon we are about to break out of this "spiritual prison" or "mental prison" ... not sure which it is.

IMHO, the reason you still feel positive is b/c we are all ascending and moving up to 5th dimensionality. You are beginning to realize the "Truth". You are also sensing the thoughts of others and everyone is beginning to realize that if we ALL think nothing but good thoughts and are able to make one small part of our world HAPPY and JOYOUS ... then eventually that positive attitude will create some good in the world and the "old days" will be restored.

The thing to remember is that we are ALL going through the biggest and greatest advance in the last 16.2 billion years. It will be time to enter the "New Age" in a couple of years. The New Age of Aquarius will bring "Paradise" back to Earth.

Look at it this way ... Eve didn't bite an apple but she got a thought, a negative thought, and she told Adam. Once negativity had been introduced to the "Garden" Adam and Eve had to leave since the Garden was only for the pure of heart. As we approach the Age of Aquarius we are learning to think more positively and to help others, help the planet, and help ourselves. We are learning to LOVE again. As we all imagine a world without war and an abundant food supply, with no starvation, no pain and suffering (in excess), people who believe in ONE LAW ... Harm No One ... we WILL evolve and the planet will once again be the Garden of Eden ... it just takes a LOT of positive thinking to overcome all the negativity which is trying to take over. If we lose "heart" we lose the race. Positive thinking is the only salvation so keep it up and your positive thoughts plus my positive thoughts and the others positive thoughts who read this question and begin to think about it and tell their friends and soon there will be positive thoughts springing up everywhere and the Higher Powers will see this and comment " Look at all the peril we give them and yet they still smile and cheer and are happy ... perhaps they are ready to graduate to the 5th Dimension and get accepted into the galactic federation and begin to meet people from other planets."

Anything is possible ... when you BELIEVE!

I AM

Dartagnon

Celtic Peace, It sounds as if you are going through a major transformation at the moment .......

The positive spark inside you would be because deep down, part of you knows that you have the will to go with the flow and come out the other side, honed in the fire, but closer to the real you.

The stripping away of the old can seem very painful whilst it is occurring ... my thoughts are so much with you. (((Hug))). And I hope the car copes with the Rockies okay!

NB. I've always known you were a man ... but thanks for the confirmation.

Namaste

Maybe you could write a book and then you would have a life as a writer, until then you still have the rest of your life so how can you mess up so far? Why all these dramatics isn't life exciting enough, just trying to stay safe and not sorry? You could ask an older person.

This is really strange!

When people are groping in the dark, dank, dingy places, for a light...for something, anything...to give them hope, to keep them afloat, here you are! Here you are, regretting it, ready to give it up, almost beating yourself to be rid of it! How come?!?

Reason/logic...is this all that's required to lead a good, happy or contented life? Is that what makes life meaningful? I feel it makes people cold & calculating! Faith is what helps you tide over. That spark is what will light your path...and you want to extinguish it? Why is inner light not enough for you? Why do you seek it from the outside?

You are obviously lost! But not all is lost. I hope you get what I'm trying to tell here!