Do you ever ask yourself?

yes I have asked these from myself so many times

yes

so many

yes

allah knows all

not needed

I ask that everyday and realize that my answer is always going to be no; because, I am human and I want everyone to be happy.

Yet, I realize also, that it isn't possible; because, of how I have lived.

The only thing you can do is try and move on.

As crazy as it sounds each of your questions could be consider emotional luggage that needs to be lost at the airport; which, we all know can happen.

Your questions, also, have an overlay to a bigger picture of the affects of what you do. In other words, I will answer your first question ~ Have I done enough? Yes, for that situation, even though it created problems for other areas; which, affected my answer twofold to being - yes for that situation; but, no for what it created. ( Sorry, if it didn't make sense; but, its early and I haven't had enough coffee to get my day going.)

Anyway, I wish you well . . .

Yes.

Have I done enough deeds to finish my book with "happily ever after in heaven"? God willing yes.

What more can I do to redeem for my past sins? I know the answer already, but usually we question when we already have the answer.

Did I do too much to be forgiven? and the answer is always no, because it's never too late to repent.

Will they know how much I did to get to where I am now? And I wouldn't care for an answer.

Did I show how important poetry is to me? No, because no matter what it never sinks in.

all the times

No I actually haven't but I do try to cover up my tracks and do the best job I can in whatever task I do whether its for myself or for others. If I do my best then I don't have to wonder if it was my best.

Yes, all of these.

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