Care to share a few words?

Well I'm not really one to ask questions online, mostly because I'm trying to end my online social life. I'm usually active in the political forum but this time I have been bothered by something and wanted to hear people's take on this. I'm in the military have been for the past 2 and a half years and I'm 19 years old. Roughly 6 months ago while I was at AIT, a girl that I have been seeing ditched me for another guy. Here's the thing we were on and off before hand and she had been with this guy before and that's kinda what really got to me. I remember begging her to take me back and somehow I blamed myself for it ending. I cried like such a baby that I felt like a small child. Crying is a big thing for me, I never cry really. I was away for 3 months but I think she picked the worst time to end it because I was in a 24 hour military environment that was already stressful and there was also the issue with her being very flirty with other people especially this one guy I detested. I did all the wrong things, I called her asked her to take me back, told her to give me another chance asking her if it was something I did. I demanded some sort of explanation because out of nowhere she dumps this on me and she refused to answer.

We haven't talked really since. I've called her a couple times but any attempt to contact her as ceased. She called me about a week or so ago and asked if there were girls chasing me and I said "no" and she said "go-I mean aw". So that kinda told me she was interested. Once she even said she wasn't entirely over me. But I know she's just screwing with me....lord I hate that.

I'm still not entirely over her despite what she did to me. Recently, curiosity got the best of me and I looked her up and saw she has a new boyfriend....my good mood died right there and I felt depression swelling within me. There's a whole lot of resentment and part of me still yearns for closure...but I don't think that's going to happen.

I'm moving on, yeah I still got some work to do. I don't want her anymore, yet the pain still lingers from time to time. I can't go this far and not go further right? What say the rest of you?