Does Anyone Else Feel Really Down During Autumn?

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I'm a 15 year old boy in 11th grade, and almost every year, usually around October to early  December, I enter into this state that I find really hard to put into words. I wouldn't call it a deprrssion or a rut, but it's kind of a combination of the two. Nothing seems nice or enjoyable anymore, no one seems to make me sincerely happy for very long, and joy doesn't penetrate me like it usually does, like there's some sort of blockade that dulls the effect of happiness on me. My school grades fall a good two to six points and I feel anxious a lot. There's this sense of meaninglessness and nihilism eating away at the back of my brain that I can't forget about for too long. I've never had a "nightmare," in that a dream has never scared me, but when I have dreams during this time, they are usually ugly and distasteful. For example, the last two dreams I had were of me recieving acupuncture from a creepy nurse in that kind of stereotypical slasher flick hospital with dim lights and an absence of people, and of me trying to fend off a burglar in the middle of the night without any help. When I was little, my life basically became a momento mori painting at this time, and I'd sit alone for a long time crying and panicking about how little time I have in this world and what I could possible do to make a difference in it. Now, it's really more about stress and anxiety. I feel so alone and isolated, but everytime I try to spend time with friends, I feel like I need to do something of significance. In school, I just can't stand study halls because they make me feel so wasteful and lazy when I could be taking a class and learning something instead. And yet, when I am doing something I consider productive, the nihilistic ideas flood my brain and I can't focus, which leads to subpar work and disappointment. I've tried talking to my parents about it, but they just kind of said I was too young to be feelingthat way about life, which I know is true, but it doesn't help me fix it. Also, I get this sense of masochism during this time where all the media I consume is media I don't like. I can't play good video games, read good books, or listen to good music. In fact, I hardly ever listen to my iPod, which has songs I like on it, during this time; I have this strange urge instread to go on the internet, find the worst songs I can find, and listen to them over and over. These feelings have usually subsided by Christmas and is at their peak during Halloween, but it's something I don't like and don't need to deal with. I heard that some people's personalities change slightly with the seasons or are dependent on the time of year, but this is the one and only instance were that happens for me and I imagine I'd feel this kind of emotional shift at other points in the year as well, which I don't. My friends have been telling me lately jokingly that I've gone insane, but I feel like they're right. Am I just being stupid? Am I going insane? Does this happen to anyone else? And, most importantly, how do I fix it?

sweet · Accepted Answer

Yes, it may be called SAD. It is seasonal, affective disorder. It is really common.
It has to do with the weather. How it affects certain people. You can go to the doctor if your parents will agree. Or save your money and go yourself if your parents do NOT believe you.

I believe you. It makes sense. But you will have to get your insurance card so it will be cheaper.

minger · Answer

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Anonymous · Answer

Everyone goes through emotional cycle during the holidays. I've got it down to a science. You got your Depressors, those who get extremely depressed during the holidays. The gift givers, those who buy things for people they don't even know only to fall into depression when they realize it's all over. The compensators, those who decorate their yard for Halloween, dress up in all the best monsters or nurse outfits, buys/makes the most for thanksgiving, and gifts the best for Christmas, The drinkers, those who drink depression. The kids, they enjoy everything about the holidays because they don't know the cruelty of this time of the year. And finally those who just don't care, they simply don't care.

Anonymous · Answer

sounds like SAD or seasonal affective disorder, i think the more natural light you are exposed to the better you will feel, you can trick the body into thinking your surounded by natural light by buying white light bulbs insted of the standard yellow-ish house hold lights, im not sure about it though but i hear SAD is rather common so there be a ton of stuff out there to help :)

Anonymous · Answer

No, not really, except when I would listen to the album Disintegration by The Cure.

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