How can I get over being so sad about the things I have missed out on....?

Im pregnant now... I live in Germany and I have like no friends anymore since most have left. I'm upset because, I have always dreamed of the normal things like a big wedding and big baby shower and all that... I was married in a court house, so I didn't get a dream wedding.. Now I have noone here so I don't get a baby shower.. To top it off everyone here seems to be pregnant.. Its just making me sad since I won't even a baby shower... And having every one pregnant kind of makes me feel less special, like there is no reason to share my news cause I'm sure everyone is sick of hearing someone say they are pregnant... I'm not going to get any f the thugs I dreamed about as a child.. What I really need is some way to feel special about the baby, cause right now I'm numb toward it... I want to be excited and screaming it to the world like the other women here... It just makes me feel like nothing special... Just 1 of a thousand... I'm happy for my baby but it i don't feel special, maybe I should just smile and watch everyone else be happy, and just love my baby alone. Idk how to feel anymore