wtf go i do about this addiction?

Ok so i have an eating disorder. Anorexia n then goes to binge but that's rare.well i was 88pounds very thin but was happy. Mom finally got Me to eat out . I did was fun. Well wasonly going to do once a month but turned into 2times per week. Then 3 and just got worse n worse. 4 to 5 times a,week. spending alot if money. Well id eat my two meals and then come home and eat a lot until i was sick . In one month i gained 30pounds . In may i Ws 98. Now 135 or so. So more then 30. Im unhappy each day at bed time cause i feel so awful. I hate it but yet something tells me to do over n over again. What do i do?how can i stop? I don't want to be this way no more i want to lose some weight back. Help