I feel so trapped in this life, what should I do?

Let me break this down

"I'm 15, 16 this year, and I feel so stressed and trapped in this life" -- I'm 14, turning 15 soon, and I've been feeling trapped and sad a lot lately too. One way I relieve stress and pain is by watching funny YouTube videos or playing games. You should do things that you like to release stress.

"My mother is always moody and angry, I have a huge amount of work to do for my GCSEs and no peace at home" --- My mom is like that as well. Maybe you should stay in your room, or go outside to do work? I don't know what GCSE means. Maybe you can ask your mom to be quiet for a while.

" It seems that nobody respects my wishes and everyone thinks they're better than me just because they're older." --- That seems to be a problem. Maybe you can sit down and talk with them about how you feel about that? You d have rights, you know.

"They don't seem to realise how unhappy I am because of the degrading comments they make." ---- It's the same way for me. My parents bash me for not being Christian and for not being a perfect girly extrovert they want me to be. You should tell them this. you should not have to put up with it.

"I get bullied at school too because I'm a girl but I have a boyish voice, and I'm so unhappy with my appearance too, I'm overweight and I find myself ugly." ---- Talk to a guidance couceler, and if somebody bullies you then you need to tell someone. If you're unhappy with yourself, then maybe try to lose weight? I really don't know what else to say here.

"I'm confused because I love my boyfriend but I have dreams about being with his best friend's brother, and I don't even know why I like him because he smokes weed and dresses weird and is pretty much anything other than the sort of person I normally find attractive." ---- Dreams as in sleep dreams? Those mean nothing. Don't let them get to you. If you don't care for him, then just ignore your dreams.

"And nobody seems to understand! They all just tell me I'm complaining but I feel like I'm about to crack under the pressure of being me... " --- I feel the same way! People don't know who/how anyone is unless they're in their shoes.

"I just want to be free, I crave freedom so much, I ache for it...why is it so hard? How can I make it better? Please help... "

Me too....

Do not kill youself. That's the first rule.

Try to get help, try to make friends. Do you have any aspirations? Then do those. If you like music, writing, dancing, playing sports, or anything, then do it. Try to have fun in your life.

Is there something you find comfort in? When you're sad, you can go to it. Maybe a funny YouTube channel, or some old toys, or something like that.

Here's a tip. You can make jars for when you're feeling sad. Get a jar and write down on small papers things that make you feel happy. Maybe a joke, or a memory. You can go to that jar when you need help.

Just remember that your life will not last forever. Make it count, but please know that any pain you feel is only temporary. Think about the good things in life, not the bad.

its your age

I know its the last thing you want to be told but most teenagers feel just like you do at some point when they are a teenager

well life can not be all that bad if you have a boy friend so just stop dwelling on the bad and make the best of the good because trust me, by the end of summer this year your life will be different in lots of ways