Since I had an abortion in January, I do not trust my boyfriend. It's just put doubts in my mind. Please read am at breaking point?

So since then I think it's kind of proven that he's not on the same level as me and he told me first he wanted to keep it but then when he really thought about it changed his mind.

I used to trust him but now I'm terrified of him cheating on me and must think I'm not what he wants at all because he didn't want our baby. He is 22 by the way.

His mum is so rude to me but so lovely to everyone else. I feel like shut and all my boyfriend does is write on Twitter/Facebook about how hot famous women are.

I am at breaking point and even feeling suicidal. I have just been offered a new job and feel like I may need to break up with him and have a fresh start in life. Any help please?