Ugh... Uncomfortable question but... In the past I ve masturbated to girls on Facebook and I feel ashamed.?

Hey y all... So. I don t like to consider myself creep. Heck, I m REALLY hoping I m not. I hope this doesn t sound self-praising (probably will) but Most people like me a lot, I consider myself confident and good, and I do have a lot of friends who accept me as I am. However, I ve been dealing with some depression lately and the way I cope is... well masturbating. Anyhow, I ve been into porn before but I never liked it. A) it can addicting. B) it warps guys perception into looking at girls like objects and not human beings. And I like to humanize girls as much as possible. As a kid who suffered from severe anxiety, more susceptible to depression,and someone who d always be imaginative, I instead used Facebook. I didn t really think of it as something wrong. Heck, growing up I kinda considered it normal. But just lately, I kinda figured that if whatever girl knew, they d probably feel violated. I mean of course, what guy WOULD tell a girl they masturbate to that they masturbate to them. Or how they do it. I dunno. I guess I thought it more intimate all my life. Not so plastic like porn. But I ve been reading up on the subject and it sounds like it d creep most people out. What do you guys think? I mean it s nice to have sexual stimulation, and I don t REALLY want to watch porn because I don t want to treat girls like objects. What do I do?