Tears on Father's Day?

I know exactly what your going through.. and it sucks so bad. I was exactly this way on mother's day a few weeks ago. my mom who was my life, my rock, my biggest fan.. who loved me through everything..childhood, terrible bratty teen years (lol) and young adult years, having my kids, getting divorced.. and so much more passed away on June 8, 2016. she had alzheimer..but actually passed away after a short stay in nursing home . she lived with me and we were going camping for a week. so we placed her in respite at nursing home she loved going there for a short visit. we live in a small town so she would see a lot of people she had known a long time..and she enjoyed fussing over the people in wheelchairs covering them up with their blankets, singing to them etc. well we came back to find she had supposedly been pushed by another patient and fallen and broke her pelivc bone in two places and her elbow.. we left a happy woman and came back to a wheelchair bound woman with a cast to her shoulder who was bent over drooling in wheelchair.. because they had her on Oxycontin 80's and she was 5'1' and 102 pounds..I lost it when I walked in ..one because I was her healthcare proxy and never got a phone call about her being sent to ER.. because with alzheimer she was unable to make any real decisions for herself and often couldnt even tell you her own name.in that week we were gone she had lost about 5 lbs..I had her immediately taken off the oxy and switch to something far less potent Vicodin 5 mg. I brought her to orthopedic doctor who even wrote a note to nursing home saying this patient is over medicated which is why she was switched ..but it was too late a week late she was 16 pounds lighter and I was holding her hand while she laid in bed dying playing Frank Sinatra, ella fitzgerald songs she played all my life and singing to and telling her I loved her and it was okay if she wanted to stop fighting... it was the ******* ( excuse my language) hardest thing I ever had to do. and I miss her ever single day...I saw her almost every day of my life as she always lived near by... or talked to her..the last 6 years of her life she lived with me after being diagnosed with Alzheimer so I cared for her 24 hours a day 7 days a week..having only one week off a year to go camping with my kids and husband. I have so much guilt like if I hadn't of gone camping and she h ad been home she would still be alive..so many people tell me I should sue nursing home for wrongful death. I never paid them for the week she stayed there and the week she spent there dying...and they have never contacted me for payment not even once.. and I am really starting to believe a year later it is because they know they were at fault. Sorry I have been dragging on with my story......just wanted you to know you are not alone I wish there was a telephone in Heaven so I could at least call my mom and say hi i miss you and hear her say i love you and miss you too

i think its normal for you to feel that way, and theres lots of people on here without dads, or moms, i dont have either, both of mine are gone

I know this is going to sound crazy but I don't love my dad. I get it. You miss your dad greatly and he was probably a great father. My dad is narcissistic and doesn't treat me like a friend or even a father at times. He has emotionally abused me in the past and I've confronted him about the way he treats me. He runs away and doesn't face the truth. I don't love him and it feels great when I say it because that is the truth. The truth will set everyone free.

I'm sure they are still proud of you, even if you can't hear them say it.

Yes, I am grieving the loss of my dad. I wish I had been nicer to him. He had been impoverished all his life. I want to share with him what money I have now. But he is long gone and I am sad.